Apologies, I Have None - Joiners And Windmills lyrics

I can hear it all from outside The choked up sounds of another night I'm breathing deep through clenched teeth Watching my steps carefully These concrete slabs and kurb cuts Are looking more familiar by now And the words escape me I can't drag them up to say: "I'm sorry" There's no excuses We had such high hopes We had such high hopes But it's always difficult to keep everything balanced To not leave anything behind It's so hard to fall apart When there's nowhere you'd rather land So this is it: the choices that we made Like not giving up just yet I'm not giving up Sometimes what it takes is to listen to what you say And try to hear it To try to feel it