Apogee - Swallow The Illusion lyrics

So I wade throughout the fog of my emotions unfathomable soul like a scented roses garden where it would be inexcusable to only snap the smallest branch or even pick a tender bloom by carelessness left exposed to irresistible decay irretrievably lost to unconsciousness And by chance coincidence of a complex unforeseeable blend of possibilities - which force my brain to spill its famous endorphenious gifts all resistance is useless inborn is the urge to seek a way out of this fog each clearing in the dark ignites that hidden spark Driven by instinct of self preservation all lines are cut which might lead to the surface That narrow layer of conscious self experience of interference on minds decisions I got no choice, no alternative but to surrender to this force majeur And so I wait to swallow the illusion the dream of resolvability a tool to calm and settle my emotion across those dark impending hours Relieve my pain and let me breath resume my search - and then... Defined reduction to a bearable measure of duly experienced reality natures a**urance for unconditioned continuity of all creation And there seems no chance to escape this path To break the boundaries of human imperfection A creature of instinct constrained by a corset And civilised celing up to self-denial Constantly seeks and finds channels to respond To communicate to its environment Soul / irrational / washed ashore The liberated spirit incessantly recoils at the boundaries of society The eternal search for inner tranquility creates the grand illusion, the tool for survival Soul / irrational / washed ashore / Consciousness deceived but then relieved A temporary isle within the stream of my Emotions to rescue mental force Soul / irrational / washed ashore / Consciousness deceived but then relieved And the more I try to approach the core - the closer I look, the more I realise Those emotional oddities are a gift nature revealed destiny price And it's all in me - here to be Instead of useless fight for minds clarity I'd rather surrender and let it have it's way Tear are pouring into my very eyes irrational joy is spreading any size And it's all in me And it's all in me - here to be All that I feel - All that I dream All that I try to be All that I see - All that I know All I commence to be Now I realise the whole range of my conscious perception - the wideness of my soul Just let it flow And it's all in me And it's all in me And it's all in me - here to be