Andromeda - Ghosts on Retinas lyrics

What am I waiting for What do I hope to find Lying here inside my mind So much scattered energy Falling in between Focusing on how I hurt Introvert I search my heart I search my soul A bust without console I search the ground I search for more I just can't find the door I can't decide I can't control I lost control I have no faith I have no goal I have nothing Nothing to explore Paralyzed from the neck up No twinkle in my eye And I have no devotion No chills down my spine Paralyzed but in slow motion Like a zombie I keep on moving round and round Making sure I can't be found Panic rising from inside Adrenaline set in Still I won't move an inch The world outside pa**es me by With the blinding speed of light Captured ghosts on retinas Fading out I never laugh I never feel It's hard to conceal I never hurt I never heal What is fake, what's for real I don't believe I believe I would've never believed I would never believe again I don't believe this Believe me I never would've believed You'd believe me if I told you how If I told you how I feel Paralyzed from the neck up No twinkle in my eye And I show no emotion No tears fall at goodbye Paralyzed like from some potion I'm gripped by this stunning notion A sensation so profound I cannot make a sound Apathy spreads fast through me Like gangrene dark and cold Life and d**h entangled Infection growing sore We all know the outcome From that struggle in the past So what am I waiting for