[Verse 1]
Yeah, I always put the pressure on you
With everything you did to me to
Well I'm just trying to make an impact
You helped me through that
But everything we did in the past
Made it seem like I'm a kid with dreams that won't come
Just a kid who never really believed in love
We made connection to make it seem like we were just one
Well I gave up on you, I couldn't face that we're done
I've got this blood on my hands and the world on my shoulder
You knew we were done before it was even over
Now you're happy with him?
After all that we did?
I wonder, I wonder why you bought it to this
I'm losing myself, I'm losing everything that I wish
And everytime that I'm looking back at the spark of a kid
I'm still the kid that you love just not the way that I did
I wanna get you out of my head
If every single thought of you left
I would be the happiest man, wait for your text
Cause then I wanted to try us again
But then I got stabbed in the back by a so called "friend" right?
I'm just a deer in headlights
The panic in my mind wouldn't leave but the rest might
These dead nights get me at the heart of my best writes
Be surrounded by the ones who define
A dream is a reality trapped in your mind
Give it some time and pa**ion, you should know what I'm asking
Lacking everything from talent to the voice of my pa**ion
Insight of everything that you loved
I never wanted you, cause I only wanted us
I wanted to be everything that you would ever love
My wingman's in heaven with wings from above
And it s**s but I prayed for the day
I was giving you everything
Always checking my phone
Just to see if you're messaging
For once, but I gave that up
I've been waiting for too long
So I think I've had enough of this
Should I quit?
Am I following a path?
Am I just another glitch?
Am I just another kid with false dreams and sh**?
Or am I stuck inside a dream about to break out of it?
[Verse 2]
So let me try to get you back for 2 years
I should have already told you that my dream's near
It's not you, every night when I fought you over a text I lost you
And the day when I got you
Well I always had no stress
And that made me just wanna go back
You know I'm better than that
Cause if it hasn't k**ed me yet
I'm getting stronger
Wanting to last longer
Dating you was an honour but
You left me back at the start
You clearly had to do more than simple tear me apart
Holding me by the heart but you're crushing it in your palm
So who am I if you know I'm already gone?
And here I'm still going on, I bottle up my emotions
Giving all of what's left my spirit's already open
I'm hoping you know, where the hell should I go?
I travel alone, I can find happiness on my own
[Verse 3]
You can't see it, but you're all that I wanted
You said we had no expiration date and you promised
You are my one hope while you have so many options
Draining emotions out of me like I'm a faucet
I'm just starting a moshpit in my head when
You wanted to be the longest and
Since then we haven't been honest
Now we're driving apart
We've always been driving since the start
And then you had to go grab the soul from me
I'm not the same I used to be
I'm just a kid who wasn't wired right
Losing me, loosening, proving you'll never get the truth from me
I wanna be someone and finally make the best of me
Because I've got no help cause you rejected me
We're just complex you see, I need a lesson the
One message we had never sent to me
I bleed, my soul from my heart
And everytime I get my feet up you just tear me apart
And everytime I move forward you send me back to the start
Losing everything I had and it's leaving a mark
My name is Zach and I'm proud
I'll never take that for granted
I'm never losing my stance
You're leaving me here abandoned
You're looking for an advantage
I'm hungover from this damage
I'm never gonna fall for you and land
[Verse 4]
Concentrated on me
Always chasing a dream
Inspire the people that
Matter until everyone leaves
Because that's always how it ends
And then it happens again
It always happens to friends
Look, you're gonna meet some fakes
Like I did with multiple dates
And everything that you say is a lie
You ask if you can have time for yourself
Cause your parent's relationship needed help
Well I'm sick of this, sick of everything that you did
Just cause your parents didn't make it, doesn't really mean sh**
We're 18, and that's your level of b**h
My heart is burning which led to me burning our bridge
On Facebook you wouldn't even change your status
You never wanted us, only wanted the practice
I tried to spill it all, I'm spilling it with a pa**ion
Giving your last chance when none of this should have happened
But, I'm glad that you picked him
I hope you both are happy in the next gen
Departure at its finest but I miss it
I'm packing up everything and I'm hoping you won't forget it
Or forget me, forget us, forget the fact of what love is
And everything it did
And everything I look back on
My heart rips, you play tricks
I'm shining in the moon's eclipse
I'm shining in the moon's eclipse