[Verse 1]
Orange soda and Whipped Pinnacle's
Got my mind drifting into a metaphysical
State, dancing around thoughts
Like stepping toe to toe with faith
Cancer's eating daddy up, lost inside of his gaze
Momma said "Why you always coming home high?
You know the way that path leads you, That's how Jimbo died"
But every line that comes up in my minds refined
Another lie to rea**ure her that I'm fine
"You can trust in me instead of trusting in that dime
You could be a lawyer, instead you're working on your rhymes"
But Momma, I've been dying for some solace
Tranquility inside my mind's as rare as the solstice
I can't focus, I haven't slept good in days
Every night I'm caught up in tomorrow's weight
Just found out that the black inside of mom-mom's lungs means cancer's back
Now mom crying, looking deep into my eyes, "Please Zac
I know it's hard, but you've gotta learn how to react"
But every time I try to talk the words always retract
And all I'm left with is a verbal attack
And mama's crying, wishing that she had her baby boy back
I'm sorry
[Verse 2]
Alone
I am alone by myself, I am defenseless
Staring at the gun on my shelf
I could do it....
I should do it...
But I'll refuse it till tomorrow comes
And I am blanketed by the sun
Fresh air and no cares until the day's done
Ignorance is bliss, for me, another way to run
Away from my life, away from coming undone
And going out with a BANG in front of everyone
The sun is my sanctuary, I am guarded by the light
All my evils surface in the darkest of nights
I could give up on the fight
And greet the Heavens in the sky, with the angels
I will reunite
[Outro]
No spite shall reignite my pain tonight
Even when the darkest of days turn to night
No spite...
No pain...
I'm done...
It's over...
Over