[Verse 1]
This is my life
This is what's real
I know that y'all wanna know how I feel
Feelin the scars, the cuts, the bruises
And knowin there's not enough air in my lungs for me to move on
I've been tryna get in touch with above, something I've loved
But only recently have stop tryin because
Maybe it's my fresh start
Maybe I'm finally out of the dark
I've had enough of you piercin my heart
I'm pickin your brain you tear me apart
I am no longer stuck in my room I am comin out of my shell I am back in the light
I've dealt with your sh** for too long now shut the f** I'm done being nice
I'm scared and I'm nervous
I'm tryna be perfect
Y'all treat me like sh**
And don't think that I'm worth it
Treat me like I ain't human
I ain't equal
You know that I don't deserve it
I regret everything since I've left
The girl that I love and fillin her life up with stress
Give me a chance I've grown, I've learned, matured
You know I would give it my best
Now all I do is reminisce
Now tell me what you want cause you won't accept this
My letter of consideration
My hearts achin
Give me morhpine for the pain that I'm takin
My minds takin over my life, it ain't right they keep comin
All tellin me I should quit
f**, but I ain't done with this sh** cause
Remember that day that you told me to give my all
And that you would be there if I fall
Well tell me where you at now
I ain't comin back now
I know I should've told you how I felt
When we sat down
I'm feelin confused and I'll lose my mind in due time as long as I'm writing
Knowin I'm fighting his war on my own but just know for a fact that I won't stop fighting
Cause this has been my whole life
Knowing I picked up the mic and put down the sharp knife
Ones that are helpin me strife are the ones that stop me from cuttin the wrist I have sliced
Same ones that helpin me flow
Cause they always know
Exactly what way I should go
I know I left y'all behind
But packed these memories that will will always be stuck in my mind
Maybe I can go back
[Verse 2]
f** if I wanna go back
See I left my past for a reason
I just packed my bags and gave my life a new meanin
Moved to a place where there's only two seasons
I know I took off without sayin I'm leavin
But I was just locked in my room
Grievin over some bullsh** that just happen to soon
Some of my friends turned to ghosts
And I was reminiscing and why I had kept them so close
Like what the f** they did to me
Or what I did to them
Tell me what the f** did I do
And the f** did I choose
To just make me lose
The control of my body
I was so close to beatin depression then you just decided to rob me
How is that fair
For you to bring someone into my life
And then just no longer care
And take em away
I'm goin astray
I'm going off paths
That you made me to stay
See this is the Road Less Traveled
See, I didn't want my heart placed on a raffle
I didn't want my life dragged right through gravel
I'm hopin that this song will help me unravel
The truth about all of my feelins
Wonder if music is k**in or it's really healin
Me and all of my wounds
What do I see will I be home soon
Cause I'm feelin lost I feel the exhaust
I feel like I'll never be wanted no matter the cost
I feel like I'll never be found and I'll drown in the past
Tryna make my moments last
See I don't give a f** if I make it
Go ahead and take it
Cause you can't be me less you fake it
But right now I feel so tall
I know I won't fall
I know I can give it my all
[Verse 3]
But now, I feel great
I feel like I got it off of my chest and now there's no weight
I feel like there's no need for my armor plate
And I think that I'm finally in a perfect mind state
That I can tell you all of the feelins
All of the feelins I got when I looked in your eyes
I know that you're up in the sky
I know that you saw me as a friend and that's no big surprise
I knew you were goin through sh**
I knew that you wanted to quit and you just couldn't handle it
I love how you would stand tall and give it your all
Even if in the end you would fall
I love how your eyes were blue
Cause that was the one thing that I knew that I could look into
And I love how your hair would just flow in the wind
f** God tell me why it had to end
Cause I don't understand
I don't understand why people just like to say that they can't
I don't understand why people keep tellin me that I need to live my life with a plan
And I don't understand why people keep thinkin that life is too hard for me and I won't survive
And I definitely don't understand why I'm goin through all of this sh** but yet, I'm still alive
But see I still rise
I know what it feels like to give up inside
I know what it feels to give up your pride
When you're at the top yet you still wanna commit suicide
I know what it feels like to hide
I know what it feels like to die
I know what it feels like to give it your all when you reach the end yet you still fall
So now tell what do you see
Me, I still rise
I know what it feels like to give up inside
I know what it feels like to give up your pride
When you're at the top yet you wanna commit suicide
I know what it feels like to hide
I know what it feel like to die
I know what it feels like to give it your all when you reach the end yet you still fall
So please tell me who's takin the Road Less…
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