They love my mind cause the way my brain speaks to my heart
I hate myself, through pain I was drawn to this art
I hate this craft
Lately my hearts been feeling understaffed
You're the one who knows me the best
Tell me why I'm so down and a wreck
Tell me why my life got me feelin' this depressed, the disrespect
Got me feelin' distressed yes
I'm impossible to gage
Depraved molecules in rage
Weekends surrounded by kids I don't know
Girls come through wanna f** snort blow then they go
And it's all good till you're sitting in a dark room then you Realise in your life nobody's really got you
Rotting away, my night fades away today and I can't show my Face around school
Around you
Around you
Used think this sh** was cringe, now I binge watch
Want a gold Benz just to flex rock, diamonds on my wrist clock
b**h watch while I hit top
Wondering if I'm a f**ing freak while I'm sneaking down these Streets
Terrified to sleep refuses my sheets just wanna christen me
Listening to slightly outta tune rap beats
While I'm praying for a better mic
And begging god for a better life
But I'm walkin' from a different time
Speaking to a bunch of imbeciles who've lived a different type
My teachers like beg and choose while they tell me that I'm Utta line
Everything's in different shades of black and white
It's my highlight of a life, yeah these letters that I write
Nobody gave a f** about my feelings till I made them rhyme
Known as the kid who speaks a lot
I would die for some quite time, a silent mind
I technically been known to overwrite
Stay awake and write overnight
Familys asleep outside, while I'm writing tracks by the Candlelight
Out of sight and out of mind
Never been much of a socialite
Never deliberately been a bad kid, there's just been situations In my life where I sorta lacked wit
Sorta lacked it, yo I never really had it
I'll sleep when I'm f**ing dead, I don't need the practice