[Verse 1]
Graduated, but I'm not going far
Feel like I'm moving but I look, and I'm still in the car
Willing to fall for vanity of those tell me they're tall
I plan to be standing above them but still who's in charge
Who pays the bills even the ones they make for themselves
They say it'd put more in my brain than the books on the shelf
So here I am, in a white cinder block prison cell
And outside a preppy bunch who judge, as well
Feel like the same rat, got moved to a different lab
To test affects of what depression and liquor'll have
And while I'm at it go to cla** or I'm getting the axe
I left my parents a child, should come back home a grad
[Verse 2]
Second semester's going worse than the first
The pressure's getting to me “do it or you'll never be worth
What we're spending, the tens of thousands piled up since your birth
So smile will ya, and make it worth our while you nerd”
I smoke more cigarettes than cla**es I go to in a day
And I would rather write a song than write a f**ing essay
Don't wanna leave my cells to hit the mess so I'm losing weight
But it's okay it's just a game so while I'm here I should play
Like how my teachers seem to think they got casted as God
By the time the clock hits Nine I just feel blasted and shot
Feel like I gotta get high no longer sleep like a rock
But final's week is coming up don't give a f** yo I'm off
[Verse 3]
It's summer now, I'm smoking with my bro and growing how I wanna
Got a job, clock out, roll up in my sister's Honda
School starts again, friends leave I'm left behind to
Make a little money living with Mama and Papa
Get a second job, lose the first, stay with my Aunt to
Make some money while I make it baked I'm getting nada
Got payment problems this job kinda makes me nod off
No privacy regardless of who owns the casa
I need some time alone
My mind can't be my only home
I feel like I gotta move feel like I'm sitting on the stove
Gotta get the f** out drop all my sh** and just go
I lost my pa**ion and I know cuz I only get out of bed to work and piss
And I miss the days when I still wanted to do that and this
I'm kicking it within my hippocampus relying on memories
I f**ed up guilty of committing self treachery
I'll never be anything “don't give up hope
Keep going” going to sleep, work, to make some muhno (money)
God this sh** is stupid
f**ing shocked that I don't lose it
Like a clock I'm working with my hands
Replaced if I don't move it
Who's the one who set this up and made the world what it's become
Hundreds, no millions billions of us in the tub
I jumped in when I was born and now I wanna pull the plug
On the run, from myself and what they've told me since I've been a son
I'm finna chug whatever liquor I can get my hands on
Hard d** optional making me sweat like a dog
Return to nature's enticing me I'd be one with the grubs
Likening me to being john, put my spirit in a slug