[Intro]
I can see how broken you are. How defeated. You can't win and you know it because inside you're already dead
[Verse 1]
These days I see my life through windows of frustration
For every obstacle my life is full I lose patience
My situation inundated with no-win scenarios
As circumstances turn to sh** after seemingly made of gold
My positive outlook is transformed to negative
I'm grasping at the fantasy to live a life I'll never live
Maybe what I lack's a commitment that I have yet to give
Slipping in the darkness of what seems an eternal eclipse
So I turn and I twist and search for what doesn't exist
Some piece of contentment instead all I get is this sh**
From where I am to where I need to go today
Seems to be measured in distances that's many more light years away
Nothing I can do to reach with any tool I use
No matter what I choose the outcome is that I always lose
I can't even pretend that this sh** isn't stressing me
The heart of it I'm losing confidence and thinking less of me
[Chorus]
I hold my head up high for the people surrounding me
And that's down with me
I take steps not to trip, but they don't see that I'm falling down
I'm falling down
I'm falling down yo
I keep a smile on my face for my friends and my family
To hide the insanity
I stay discreet cause I don't want them to peep
That I'm falling down
I'm falling down
I am falling down
[Verse 2]
My limited options have got me feeling boxed in
As best laid plans and dreams are headed where the stop ends
How do I smile when everything has died inside
Although I can't reveal the struggle to the family and so I hide
Keep them distracted with this mask of overconfidence
Conceal the way I feel which in reality's incompetent
And be the shoulder that everyone else can cry on
While life continues with its game and really starts to pile on
Health issues arise... many loved ones have died
Many times have I tried to shrug it and take it in stride
As all the bonds I've made slowly start to slip away
When those that's closest to me start to notice I don't look the same
It's kind of twisted feeling so damn pessimistic
Pretending I'm not worried when really my minds drifted
To everybody else these songs are only music
But to me their everything my only hope I gotta use it
[Chorus x 1]
[Verse 3]
This is my outlet when everything about me spins
The side I hide from friends concealed behind a smile or grin
The artistry that's buried deep inside the heart of me
Influenced by those muses of the struggle that nobody sees
My last bastion of hope... fortress of solitude
A universe of ideas expressed and often misconstrued
Without this way to vent I just don't know what I would do
I'd probably explode from all the rage in fact I know it's true
Is this another dead end another try that fails
Another disappointment story stacked upon a pile of tales?
How do I even the scales and produce a victory
When lessons from history teach those thoughts are contradictory
Sometimes I micromanage every disadvantage
In an attempt to lessen the load of all of this baggage
The pressure builds and builds until it reach the roof again
The only relief is when I release it with this pad and pen
[Chorus x 1]
[Outro]
I'm falling down and I can't get up
Sometimes it feels like I'm not man enough
I do my best but I still feel damned as f**
At the end of the day man I can't give up
I've fallen down and I can't get up
Sometimes it feels like I'm not man enough
I do my best but I still feel damned as f**
At the end of the day yo I can't give up