The fountain was off
This is the first time I've been
Back to the city in months
I'm trying to hold it together
But irony's found cracks in the foundation
And you know
I try so hard to be some great white hope
But I can't shake the feeling that tonight
I'm gonna end up shaking in bed alone
I'm not a self-help book
I'm just a f**ed up kid
(I had to take my own advice and I did)
Now I'm waiting for it to sink in
Expect me standing tall, back against the wall
'Cause what I learned was
It's not about forcing happiness
It's about not letting sadness win
I don't have roses in the closet
But I've got pictures in a drawer
It's everything left in me
Not to stare at 'em any more
I walked upstairs and shaved my beard
I felt like I was holding sadness here
(I was holding sadness here)
I'm not a self-help book
I'm just a f**ed up kid
(I had to take my own advice and I did)
Now I'm waiting for it to sink in
Expect me standing tall, back against the wall
'Cause what I learned was
It's not about forcing happiness
It's about not letting sadness win
I don't have roses in the closet
But I've got pictures in a drawer
It's everything left in me
Not to stare at 'em any more
I'm not a self-help book
I'm just a f**ed up kid
(I had to take my own advice and I did)
I'm not a self-help book
I'm just a f**ed up kid
I'm not a self-help book
I'm just a f**ed up kid
(I had to take my own advice and I did)
I'm not a self-help book
I'm just a f**ed up kid