I turn away and close my heart
for the chance of love luring me into the darkness
I am not heartless
For the past has just taught to not be caught in love
since it is definitely not worth pursuing
Even though you are extremely alluring
and you've got my stomach churning
A relationship is something I am not yearning for
I'm simply searching for someone to just adore
Love is not the cure it is a poison
I thought I was buoyant but right now I am drowning
The water is surrounding
My heart is pounding
I am counting the seconds of how long I can hold my breath
I am welcoming d**h since it is the only thing left to come into my life
I am the clouds to your sky
It hurts so bad to say goodbye
Why must I cry when I am not the victim
I am a sickness and you are my symptom
You are the smart one, you hold all the wisdom
You are gypsum and I'm quartz
You are delicate and I'm coarse
I don't mean to be short
But by force we're gonna have to break apart at the source
I can no longer endorse your muffled cries for help
I'm just gonna have to put us up on the shelf
The pain I've substained due to my own weight of my ball and chain is a shame
I no longer wanna play my own game
You win and I lose
I'm beating myself up you can openly view the bruises
I'm black and blue and nobody has any clue why
I just wanna die I cannot survive a day further
My feelings towards you were so fervor
But I hope this news will not be confusing to you
I can not continue with misusing you
This act of defeat is certainly not an excuse
All I was trying to do was diffuse the abuse of both of our brains but I know the pain still remains
You are the smell after the rain
You're honestly the blood that's flowing through my f**ing veins
But in the event of this ever possibly happening again
Abstaining is the best solution
The foulness of heart break contributes to the factor of air pollution
So don't destroy yourself and don't destroy our planet
If you don't ever fall in love, it'll never become a habit