Try to displace the memories. Fade. Undone. Put yourself back into the same place of just three years ago. Smell the salt blowing off the ocean and the smell of her hair. Watch the sun ablaze over the water, it is burning you down. Remember missing her - it is all about missing her. More stars that night a fair bet.
But you drank them all away. Not enough sleep. You're staying awake. Do you miss the old bed? Or do you sleep standing up? Remember missing her - it is all about missing her. Paradise for the lost. Paradise for the fallen. Not a paradise at all. Drink away the hurt and push it further away.