The feelings I had for this place once unknown Remain as feelings I fear, rather than a place to feel home And while seasons keep dying I already stopped trying To get emotions in line everytime your eyes hit mine It's decisions I've made that caused both love and hate
For all that I am, for all that I am For all that I'm not, for ways that I cut For every feeling I choked and the promises I broke But to live - not survive - it's just impossible But to live - not survive - as a part of this place Is only bearable while I'm away