So special to me
In so many ways
Didn't think that I'd find you
Or care to for days
And she prays
So I stay here in solitude
Sick in myself again
Punching the air again
Burning your photograph
Wishing for us again
Knowing you feel again
Knowing I'm something
So much more than nothing
Just anything shy of a wink of your eye
For the joy that you've spilled
Or the boy that you've k**ed
Don't think I've forgotten how dirty and rotten
Your soul once could be
Not to me
Though that too
But to everyone else
Breaking a heart again
Taking apart again
All that you promised
That I'd never miss
In your kiss or your smile
It may take me awhile
Until I remember that ice cold December
When I lit a fire
And threw it to you
On you it just died
But in me caught the trees
And spread through the forest
It's been burning for years
And has quenched many tears
But don't fear what you've done
You gave me a gift
And to you I gave everything
Give it back
You don't deserve it
I see that now
You haven't earned it
And now I don't have anything
To offer as a gift
To bring a smile to a girl
Who I'd hold dear
If I could
Or if you'd ever let me go
Or let me know...
I'm not the one for you