Beat Produced by Atomic Beats.
Hook (Cryptic Wisdom):
Sometimes this life is not what you expect it to be
You've got to play your cards right, if you're to earn the life you need
I thought I had it figured all out, so went ahead and let it all out
What I know is that it's my doubt eating me alive
Verse One (symetrik):
Every night I fall asleep, my palms pressed and well-dressed,
Every day I'm waking up, and I feel like such a mess,
So I regress, regret, pretend to give a grin,
But I guess that life's a pain when you live a life of sin
And where do I begin, cuz I don't know my own story,
Getting out of nightmare's all I like about these mornings.
So baby do it for me, even kissing's too much work,
If I thought I had a prayer, then my knees would hit the dirt,
And I feel a deeper thirst sometimes, an urge to make this right,
To write a song that simplifies and evens out my life,
But I know that's not inside of me, I'll sacrifice my muse,
As the blood drains out of faces, then I'll give into abuse,
Misuse the way they look at me, the way they love this life,
She'll understand temptation when she looks into my eyes,
But I'm wearing thin disguise with the lies we all believe,
Cuz the things I whisper softly only force my own defeat
Hook (Cryptic Wisdom):
Sometimes this life is not what you expect it to be
You've got to play your cards right, if you're to earn the life you need
I thought I had it figured all out, so went ahead and let it all out
What I know is that it's my doubt eating me alive
Verse Two (Lil $am):
It seems that I've been stressing, and I think sometimes I'm letting
Too much get to me, pretend to be okay, but my obsession with
My doubts and my regrets been causing all of my depression
Sorry but I'm confessing I'm lost, I can't find directions,
I'm talking but can you hear me? I'ts been eating me alive inside
I try to hide the fact that all my pride has died,
I gotta find a nine to five to keep me and my mom alive
But why should I be stuck in this position? Is it not a sign?
And I work so hard just to ignore it, make these feelings be distorted
So I crush the pill and snort it, feel euphoric, I adore it
Can't deal with all my problems, worry 'bout 'em in the morning
Doing poorly, surely I was born with horns as a forewarning
I feel scorned and unimportant, in this horror story
Man, I'm sorry, I prolly gave you reason to destroy me
But the fact is I don't care cuz you never did nothing for me
Thought I dodged the rain, not surprised that it's been storming,
Cuz..
Hook (Cryptic Wisdom):
Sometimes this life is not what you expect it to be
You've got to play your cards right, if you're to earn the life you need
I thought I had it figured all out, so went ahead and let it all out
What I know is that it's my doubt eating me alive
Verse Three (EV):
So what if I'm bi-polar, it's not the person that I chose to be
Personality disorder just makes it hard to find the real in me
So I'm constantly just brushin' off the fakeness to take this
Life for all it's worth, since the point of my birth
It's just been gettin' worse, downed emotions nursed,
From the pits of this selfishness, dwellin' in the hell I'm in,
It's the sentiment from broken hymns that has these wrists enticed by slits,
And I'm so sick of it, this sickness that I'm livin' with
These twisting fits within my ribs push me to the point I get
So violent, so angry, wish someone would save me,
Cause in my own mind I'm just not worth the trouble
So do us all a favor and pour some gas then flick a match onto this rubble.
Hook (Cryptic Wisdom):
Sometimes this life is not what you expect it to be
You've got to play your cards right, if you're to earn the life you need
I thought I had it figured all out, so went ahead and let it all out
What I know is that it's my doubt eating me alive