[Verse 1: Irahnik]
Pen and paper hand in hand, can't make any scripture
Hands are way too numb, yet I blame it on the mixtures
Looking back at pictures of us, and all the fun times
sh**, all that has fissured to dust, we're like alumni
But that's the past participle, I may not be visible
Definite unforgivable, in a literal sense
And all these syllables left, my unconscious all unguarded
Disregard it, that's retarded, gotta see how to move on from it
Feel like a narcissist, not smoking on no arsenic
I'm not a blazin arsonist, I get em from a pharmacist
I know I lost again, but-it won't get to my head this time
All this music and this paper got me feeling high
Ink splattered all across the lined canvas
Ain't no smoking, ain't no toking, still I try to manage
I was an acid addict, but now I'm just myself
It's me, and my sword and shield, and I don't need no help
[Verse 2: Irahnik]
sh**, I'm just tryna write again, but damn but I really can't
So I'mma just write some words as if I really can
My life done hit the fan, man I need some tryptophan
I'm just tryna be a better man, eyes are red again
But I'm just stayin up too late, no other BS reason
Screw the heathens that be rolling the potent, asking for me to
Come and chill with them at this time of night
Friggin 2 AM and they be getting sky high
And I'm just chilling in my bed, wonder why I'm so insane
In the membrane, I'm slain, feeling so mundane
I'm in pain, I always manage hiding it properly
Like the broccoli you hide in your room, behind the pottery
If I don't need that sh** to clear my mind, then why do you?
I know that I'm a fool, but rather, I'd just face the truth
I was never sober, now I'm just myself
It's me, and my sword and shield, and I don't need no help