I've begged for d**h one too many times
Singing and screaming these useless rhymes
But this time I'll take control
I'll lay down and accept my role
My heart is turning f**ing black
You had your fingers crossed behind your back
My heart is turning f**ing black
I'm screaming oliolioxinfree
Cause I can't find my sanity
Where could it be?
Is this even me? Is this even me?
I'm not suicidal I swear
Oops I forgot that I don't care
To appease your standards
To be the better man
Withering dry doing everything I can
I don't get sh** back
And I'm tired of that
Because everything you hate in me is everything you lack
Get up
Get out
f** me till I can think again
f** me till I can feel again
f** me until I can feel
My world's collapsed
So it's time to relapse
Where I shut myself down
And pull apart the scraps
So long to who you knew
Cause I changed before you withdrew
It's true, I'm through, I have no clue who I am
Just a useless f**ing shell of a bitter broken man
I hate my own head
I wish I was dead
I dream of knives and blood dripping red (dripping red)
This isn't a scene from a silver screen
And there's no f**ing way to wipe myself clean
The pieces I stole just turned into coal
Always knew it was my role
Always knew I was a dead soul