Here i Jot another line
Cuz i feel deep down somethings not fine
How come its so hard to shine
I thought i was here to clam what is mine
Still feeling like i'm lost inside my mind
My dreams shouldn't be this hard to achieve
Feeling Longer then it really seems
Now i'm spitting this rap that everyone thinks its crap
But f** it, I didn't write it for you, so shut the f** up
Before i beat your face in with my Bat
You expect me to give a crap? f** you I finally Snapped!
No one could ever relate, to all this pain and hate
I wanna break free from this gate
I know it can't be to late
I'm trying so hard to defy fate
While everyone around me feels like they have nothing for me but hate
I wrote lyrics to get the pain outta my head
While i cry my pain away in bed
Wishing i was just f**ing dead
My fate I just wanna seal it
This rap i just wanna k** it
What cuz you can see it don't mean i can't feel it
I guess my pain must be to real for you to feel it
f** everyone who never ever give a crap
Don't forget why you started to rap
You Finally snapped
Sick of fake f**s saying they have my back
Always trying to show me what I lack
Never there to spit a verse with me and make a rap
Do what you do best, be a f**in pest
Stay pissed, cuz i'm laying your a**es to rest
I'm cutting all you bad apples from the tree
You don't realize how hard it is to be me
b**hes acting like they own me
All i wanna do is try to make some money
People take me serious instead of funny
To be taken smart instead of a dummy
Making it hard to be just me
Many think im just uneducated
While i just wonder if anyone ever related
But no one gave 2 f**s not even people that are related
To the point like f** i need to be on 24/7 medication
It s**s big nuts. to be stuck in ruts, to the point
Ya go nuts
It s**s when you know when you die you won't be missed
Trying to figure out why i'm so pissed
Its why I rap it beats slitting my wrist
Ya I know my life is a bit twisted
To much bull sh** to be listed
All you haters can go get fisted
Can you please help me find my broken heart
Between all the Ruckish we drifted apart
I can't find it, I even went back to the start
And I can't see in here my soul is to dark
Oh sh** look i found a piece of my broken heart
I can't even sleep the pain haunts me in my dreams
Where no one can hear my screams
Nightmares more real than it seems
Our future staying hazy
People thinking i'm no good and lazy
Screaming to my wife
"PLZ don't leave me Baby!"
Tell me i'm not Crazy!
At least give me a maybe!
I can't take it
I ain't goin fake it
Without you i'd never make it
f** I didn't know the end was near
So here I face my fear
I don't need this life
As I grab for a knife, say f** it, I'll end it all here
I just wanna give you and our kids a better life
So I guess i'll see you all in the after life
As I wake from the dream in bed
Shaking my head wishing it was real and i was dead
f** whats wrong inside my head