I Feel like am dead, dead on the inside
Its so easy to hide. along with my broken pride
I lost my soul and is hard to find
I lost it in the darkest parts of my broke mind
I think my life is soon to be done
Cuz again here i am thinking dumb
Wanting to buy myself a gun and say f** i'm done
Im sorry daddy is a f** up my son
Cause i feel a pain that haunts me so deep
While i sit here watching my little girl sleep
I know there all 3 gifts from heaven I am glad to keep
But i'm crossing that line I been wanting to leap
Cause i can't give them the life they deserve and it hurts real deep to core
I'm sorry I just dont want go on any more
I am just a filthy little who*e
Always hurting the ones I hold close
Not many can feel my flows
I have a pain that just grows
A pain I have known way to long
Drowning myself away with a bong
While I try to forget how my life went so wrong
I just wanna be gone
I'm losing all who has ever mattered
So f** it, on these wall my brains will be splattered
Like the day my whole life shattered
I'm so sick of being broke, to the point everyone thinks your a f**ing joke'
Have you been so broke that you have lost all hope?
Have you ever thought about hanging yourself with a rope?
I have...
Putting it around my throat tightening, My body begins fighting
I begin to choke
I think this rap will be the last thing that i wrote
Im bout to inhale my last breath
I am sorry i couldn't wait no longer for d**h
This life is so hard to cope
I'm about to sink with my boat
Maybe after I croke people will finally see the beauty in what I wrote