[intro]
Hiyah man, what seems to be the problem today?
You need some Therapy?...huh? (x2)
[Verse 1]
I've always been optimistic Seeing
Wanting and believing in a better future
So that my misconceptions are not illusions
First common aspect of delusion
Caught in my feelings since I was a little kid
Always thinking that I was society's Little pig
Feeding on society's polluted farms
I have to make I don't act like a swine
Drink no wine and stay alarmed
I'm a domesticated pig
So don't be afraid to use me as a rig
The only thing I remember from my
Childhood is being so depressed
So I try and keep all the memory's
From my childhood compressed
I know I'm in therapy
But I just wanna keep some things suppressed...
Oh...so you really want to hear the rest?
Bullied to the core made me feel so foolish
Every time someone knocked I was like “Who is it?”
Felt so lonely so I wrote a couple love letters
To myself..it read 'From yours truly'
I know I'm a freak...an oddity
Flashing through my old pictures
Trying to paint a perfect picture
With a smile on my face on every picture
Unable to see the rapture my fathers
Cowardness would cause
What a rapture in my family's life
It would cause....
No need for a pause...hold the applause
His departure left my childhood scarred
With hopes and wishes of a bright future
Always having dreams of a bright future
The only thing I cared about was my dad coming back
I guess I could never really see the future
I'm such a f**ing looser
Tears after tears after tears, Fears after fears after fears
So many tares in my heart which could not be sowed back together
Broken hearted forever
Call me the black panther,no racism I'm just a Black panther
In my soul, a wild beast trying to let go (let go)
I need a vacation, a trip down memory lane
So excited, but would I return sane?
I can't bare the pain, it's a rarity
Only trying to remember the sweet things
May cause a cavity
My life's never been sweet so that's a rarity
Let me look to the future, I spot a sign of clarity
[breakdown]
[Verse 2]
What did y'all expect a chorus?
There's no melody to life
There's no chorus in me
There's no happy time in Therapy
'This ain't kindergarten'
Life sometimes feels like a garden
Myths and legends, the garden of Eden
Who do you believe in?
Reflecting on my life since the age of seven
Constantly depressed until the age of eleven
Will I ever be someone?
Or am I living in limbo?
Life hates me, but I predict a couple of empires and a limo
Do you catch my M.O?
No sinierita? No Problemo
I don't see straight all I see is a downward spiral like elmo
Sorry I went of tempo but now you catch my memo
I'm trying to let go, to get a little bit of clarity
'the Devil is a lie' this Is what I repeat to myself
To receive some clarity
My conscience will be the d**h of me
Let my emotions devour the rest of me
Let me write a d**h note to myself saying
'Rest in peace'
Because all I want in my life is some peace
So rest in pieces
[Outro]