[verse 1]
A head full of melodies to block out the memories of strangers who loved eachother before they turned into enemies. but still a burning pa**ion burns away the wick with a tiny little flame glowing from the tip. that grip on the side of the desk when I think about it, how it. started so perfect and ended crowded with shouting that sounded like it was full of love and power. the false promises when I told you i'd wait for hours at the least even weeks upon months I was in love blinded by the rush in my blood like a 24/7 andrenaline rush this is what genuine love is like the false promises that we made in confidence we were so blinded that we didn't think of the concequences but it's true when they say you find love in opposites cause look at us we didn't have sh** in common but our bond is beyond us no one understands it... and im tired of looking for answers to things that'll never be answered... our love is cancerous and hazordus but none the less it's pa**ionate me without you I couldn't imagine it but something happened and we parted now im just a lonley artist makin art from the darkets parts of his heartless heart, regardless though.... I don't love you
[Chorus]
"But I don't love you
Not like I want to
I don't love you
And that makes it hard
Every morning
I see how you watch me
And each night I know you feel it
And it just breaks your heart"
"If I loved you
I could be happy
I would make you
The light of my world
I wouldn't wait, love
I'd marry you tomorrow
And we'd make love
And I'd be your girl."
[verse 2]
Yeah I still shed a tear or two everytime I hear of you or think of you doing better, sometimes I pull your sweater out and I just let it out, all the feelin's I got pent up I could pen up about a thousand things I developed to love about you, I dont know if I love you as a person or it I love the efforts we put it in, was it worth it? yeah I think it was and I would do it all again and I would do it for the love and I would do it till my heart goes numb so I dont have to feel this way about anyone again I would like to keep these feelins hidden away behind a grin whiile I swallow down the shadows that insist that they stay, hey you wanna know something? you know those notes you gave me? well... I keep em in my wallet theyve been sittin in my pocket while I write this, I got arthritis from spending so many lonely nights writin about you in a crisis. ive spent so long tryna fight this feelin, but its way too real to just kick to the side... trust me ive tried, with so many pitty relationships that have just widdled up and died, I can't count the amount of times that i've scribbled out a line and scratched it right out... I can't count the amount of times that i've liqoured on wine and... pa**ed right out, i'm just kidding I dont drink but sometimes I think would it be easier just to swallow my sorrows so I can wake up tomorrow just a little more hollow than I was yesterday? I try my hardest to keep these feelings bottled but I can't because when memories spark my heart gets put in full throttle and im stuck missing love thats been fossiled and it's awful but regardless I gotta remind myself.... I don't love you
[Chorus 2]
"But I don't love you
Not like I want to
I don't love you
And that makes it hard
Every morning
I see how you watch me
And each night I know you feel it
And it just breaks your heart"
"If I loved you
I could be happy
I would make you
The light of my world
I wouldn't wait, love
I'd marry you tomorrow
And we'd make love
And I'd be your girl."