Sam had said when I moved you were unmoving
Though not as often lately I still find myself hoping she was joking
And the necklace somehow became a token of the wasted, the past and its presence
So now sometimes I go to bed
Dreaming hard in my fevers, well I wonder where they keep her in the back of my head
And now of course there's another, she's my poisonous bother
But this time I have to see her whenever she's here
So now sometimes I can hardly go to bed
Cause it keeps me from sleeping
Who am I to keep her? Even in the back of my head
What a waste to be so scared of the next chapter
I can't feel the same thing twice and so why am I trying?
Gotta drive on, keep my little foot on the trigger
Don't look back, stop turning around, turn off my cell and keep driving
To new cities, new friends, make some new scars, and write songs
Where I sing a little less, play some new chords and quit yelling
It's not so bad but I keep myself sad when I'm scared
It's not hard if I agree to try harder (so try harder)
(So now sometimes) I can hardly go to bed
When my dreaming is a threat
I can hardly go to bed
Cause it keeps me from sleeping
Who am I to keep them?
Things in their memory houses
Who am I to keep them?
Even in the back of my head