First loves don’t leave you, the needles & pins
My phantom limb likes to cry full of gin
She’s a molten mistake, lightning blue at the wake
She just hangs tight
And i meant what i said at the foothills
Won’t you walk me, talk with me, give me tonight
Ancient ruins bullied by sky scraper lights
Hungry & homeless i creep into the glow of it’s
Lonely, dying flame, i think i want to
Be the memory that you turn to
When you’re drunk & your empty ‘cause you’re mine
But at the same time i want to forget you
Take a gun to the mantle
And spin myself into a storm of grey skies
I’ll climb all the trees and i’ll pray for a lightning strike
Tamed into numbness, it’s what i have become since
The person you recognize
First loves conditioned like poisonous fate
With optimism we just contradict
Was i just your mistake, cinnamon to the taste
Bitter but graceful
You know i meant what i said in the moment
But now i’m pendulum sentiments, swaying while i cry
Destined for abattoirs, lovers only live
A penny for your thoughts, i would kill for a kiss
First loves are lethal, dilute all you like
Reticent discontent laboured in stride
Hear the acid rain dripping down the water pipes to the ocean floor
And i meant what i said you’re an angel
You were sent to me, carefully right at the time
That i needed a petal to throw into the fire
Something pretty and impermanent that i could admire