Haunted by a restlessness I fail to find peace*
While thoughts of a self-destructive nature drive me to madness
What was left of happiness in life is now gone, even the sun looks dark in my eyes
My heart feels desolate
Trapped in a maze of horror, forsaken by God, I cannot escape
This time I don't see a way out, except for d**h
Although I want to be freed from the despair that envelops my soul
I neglect to find help, unsure if I even want it to end
Playing with the thought of a self inflicted d**h to end this nightmare called life
What was left of happiness in life is now gone, even the sun looks dark in my eyes
My heart feels desolate as if hell already burns inside
What if this pain does not end with d**h
But continues to haunt my soul in hell
I cannot bear these visions of despair
So I stay my hand
In a moment of solitude I cry out from my misery to the One I fear
As new strength refills my heart with courage, I find myself willing to go on
I slowly rise on my feet to confront the demons which sought my d**h