Lately I feel so alone
Don't even know why I have a phone
Nobody hits me up and I'm stuck
Never had someone that I could call my, own
It's lonely walking down this, road
Fake friends that I didn't have to, know
The same ones that fu*ked me over and whenever I need them
And I turn around they just turn ghost
I feel I'm at an all-time low
I am depressed and it hurts me to know
My ex is happy and I can't seem to cope
She's ignoring every text message I wrote
My anxiety is high, my medication is low
I am so stressed and I hate being home
I sit and overthink everything alone
I wish I had somebody to hold, damn
I'm sick and tired of putting up a front
Like I'm happy but really I'm in a slump
I try to stay strong, screaming "I don't give a f*ck!"
But if anybody would give it then I'm, the one
I wanna' put down my walls and open up
I hide behind this rapper I've become
Addicted to being accepted is like a drug
No ones here I feel like I'm ready to plunge
I remember you said my music was wack
Teachers persuading me to try to give up my act
They said, the image and the drive is what I lack
Made me think maybe I could never be a part of rap
Well I ignored that, I said f*ck it and snapped
Over twenty million plays where are my haters at
I didn't need a label to give me a chance
The day I sell out an arena, I'll feel like I'm the man
Buzzin' hard, but to find nothing
Never found someone who really loves me
People coming around now cause I'm getting money
A few plays later now they all see something
The same guy that is from the start
The same guy my ex left with a broken heart
The same guy who turned music into his art
The same seven-year-old who dreamed of being a star
I'm twenty two, and I won't let myself down
I stood up right after I fell down
It's hard to see heaven when you know you're hell bound
I never really opened up and that's until now
I hope that I never lose you
If I could choose one person I would choose you
I hope you understand my pain
Cause that's something that we all got to go through
I hate being down this road
Been down before
I feel like I need you more
I'm so alone
Once I was seven years old
My future's all I'd imagine
And now I'm here and I look back and I'm screaming "Damn it"
This a life I never planned it, no I never planned it