[Verse 1]
I got a heavy head
So baby lemme vent
Recollect
I need a way to Disconnect
From, my intellect
Discontent with present tense (sigh)
Overstressed
I cannot rest, I try to do my best
I, say my prayers, let my fingers intersect
With dire hopes I can express
All the ghosts within my chest
I can't pretend
Neglect these things that I regret
Overslept with a bunch of tens
Over-smoked when I was depressed
Ditching friends
When I repent to make amends
Or take a guess to comprehend
I can't forget, I feel condemned
Disrespect and condescend
Myself and always represent
I'm just a blend, of self-destruction
Meant to face a bitter end
Over honest, should I tear this page apart?
I'm far from flawless, retain my sacred heart?
Was it a promise? I was tainted from the start
I will never find no solace, till I learn to play my part
[hook]
I can't afford, to live this way, live this way, live this way (hey);
I thank the Lord, and give my praise, give my praise, give my praise (for today)
Ok fix my wrongs, and please don't break please don't break, please don't….break;
Don't got it all, but its okay, its okay, its okay, I do my thing baby
[Verse 2]
Why you ashamed?
Cuz I was raised on faith
Trained on my creators ways
“Don't chase what your creator made”
What they'd say, all tastes the same
Lost my grace to blazing eighths
Swinging clubs like taylor mades
L-aying like where lakers play
What can I say?
Mistake to ever surf this wave
Paper chasing turned me slave
Breaking bread on paper plates
Gave my all to make some change
Busted balls like damon wayans
Major pain remainders stay
My fault misread the waiver page
[Recourse, you need it at your core]
Step 1, leave your ego at the door
Forget keynotes and awards
Black Tuxedos and a Porsche
Christian dior kinda broads
On a speedboat by the shore
Sippin pinot reading source
With you n to Beelo up on Forbes, then
Step 2
Turn on the light n face the truth
Sacrifice, the things you do
An afterlife still waits for you
Shoot, you only take what you accrue
Choose to live a life of vice, or use your right, to refuse
[hook]
I can't afford, to live this way, live this way, live this way (hey);
I thank the Lord, and give my praise, give my praise, give my praise (for today)
Ok fix my wrongs, and please don't break please don't break, please don't….break;
Don't got it all, but its okay, its okay, its okay, I do my thing baby
[Outro]
Boy don't chase the fame, just to find your shine
Adjust and shift your frame, all the dots align