Winter winds, how you crawl across the lake
While you tease and scream my name
Speaking softly in grey, hold me up, just hold me up
Shifting back and forth from listening to hearing
It's hard to know when you ache, between wanting and needing
And I just can't control myself
Cycle and circle and break the seal again
It's hard to admit it, I'm a shell of a man
Let me see with color, clarity from the mother
And I just want to live, like I have worth to give
Filled with golden blood…
Is this what I've given, will I live to see a son
I won't follow my father, I'm not the foolish one
Naïve as a child, I look for the Gods in the stars
I stay silent and listen for lost ones
I'm not the foolish one
We deny it, drowning our souls
The haunting quiet, this cold black storm
And I choose to live, and I want to make a home
In this shame I create, my mouth spews black ash and foam