During visiting hours I had to read to sick people Kinda' People who had no one It was my punishment Catholic school community service For farting on a nun's muffin It was an accident I swear to god And every day would start the same way She'd say "how you doing?" And I'd say "I'm doing alright" She'd say "I'm doing just fine" Point in fact The cancer had taken both of her breasts And i imagine where ever cancerous breasts get thrown Two of them mourn their lost body But she could laugh She had a laugh like a welcome mat Wore the same kind of smile Curious George could wear If he finally came out of the closet To be with the man in the big yellow hat She'd touch where they used to be And say "You know, it's probably good that they're gone My ex used to go about them all wrong" she said "Half the time the only reason my nipples were erect Was because they were trying to jump off my body To run away from his tongue" I was thirteen years young Thinking to myself "Oh my God you're awesome" For me it was all about visiting hours I hadn't read to her in days She was too busy teaching me How to watch horror movies and laugh Because all of the monsters hollywood can think up Just aren't as scary As letting yourself be talked into Believing you can be only half of what you are She'd put a hand on each scar And say "if you really want to get scared Watch the news" Its steeplechase Every day thousands of people face Going under thousands of knives But it's still more cost effective For doctors to pay off lawsuits Than its to save lives "So don't try walking a mile in my shoes Just wear my pajamas And walk in my dreams instead Beause this isn't a d**hbed" She'd say "I'm not gonna give up today I'm not just gonna lay here and take it Beause life is as elusive As getting an orgasm from my ex So sometimes I just got to fake it So if anyone ever tells you You're not good enough You're not smart enough
Give up your foolish dream If anyone ever tell you to quit You got to make them wear a diaper on their mouth Because man they're just talking sh**" Then she'd smile and say "You gotta let your body be the rocking chair That soothes the tired body of hope Let your arms be the rope Around the neck of self loathing Let your skin be the clothing That keeps compa**ion warm On the cold streets of regret" She says "don't pray for me yet" And I said "no problem religion is something I gave up on Along with dieting But love Love is a feeling that in me and through me I've often called god So I will love you" She looked me straight in the heart and said "its a shame They don't make hospital beds for two But kid you Got your own sh** to do And I can't continue To let you be doing alright Or be going just fine Not when there's world full of people Tired of dressing in shadows Just waiting for you to shine" "Now bring me my goddamn jello" She liked jello She liked me too During visiting hours I had to read to people Who had no one But this is about a woman Named everyone This isn't about d**h It's about the fact That I can still feel her breath in my ear Sometimes I can even hear her say "You're not giving up today" Because I live in a world Full of seeing eye underdogs And I'm pretty sure We're all tired of wearing our choke chains We're tired of being treated like walking canes In a world so blind No one can find each other So we just keep bumping into one another Like people are just buildings made of bone Who collapsed every time they're made to believe They were meant to stand alone But you're not Some of us can love Some of us look like jokes Not funny Its just the way you people keep falling for us And yeah Some of us are going to get cancer And some of us are going to fall in our showers But until then you got to shine Because all the time you get It's just visiting hours."