[Violent J + (Suicide Hotline Operator)]
(Suicide Hotline, may I help you?)
Yeah...uh...well I'm 'bout to f**in' k** myself
(Listen, you don't wanna do that, okay? You don't wanna do that)
I'm gonna..eh...there's so many f**in' reasons why
I don't even need to be here anymore (There's no reason..)
I'm gonna put a slug in my f**in' head!
(You don't wanna do that, you wanna be here on Earth okay?)
f** that sh** man! I got a gun right now..(Put it away)
And I got it right under my chin man, f** that!
(Take it away from your chin)
I'm gonna f**in' blow my head all over the ceiling
(No you're not..okay?)
f** this sh** man..
(Hey, just talk to me, okay?)
[Verse - Violent J + (Suicide Hotline Operator)]
It ain't no point to me wakin' up
Everybody's time I'm takin' up (Noo)
I got nobody, it ain't a shoulder near
I can't stay here and it's colder there (Where?)
I don't wanna look back cause it's gonna hurt
I slice my wrists and it's gonna squirt (Ooh)
For me, everybody holds a hate
I get backstabbed and everybody holds the stake
It's no roads to take, I'm in a circle drive (Ooh)
Bustin' at myself and I'm tryin' to survive
I'll disappoint you, and I will let you down
And I ain't got many home boys comin' around (No?)
You don't understand, so don't say you do (Oh yes I do)
I swear I'll put a motherf**in' slug in you (Now now)
I'm the only one, the lonely one
At home alone, loadin' a gun thinkin' why not?
[Suicide Hotline Operator]
Why not? Why you wanna die?
Okay, you have feelings inside your head, okay?
I understand that, feelings lead to depression
When you have depression, you have a lonely void inside of your heart
Okay? And your heart means everything to the world, okay?
[Verse - Violent J + (Suicide Hotline Operator)]
I got court comin' up, I stole the truck
I got a b**h pregnant and I'm broke as f**
I wanna get high but I got piss test (Well..)
I'm always first name on top of the sh** list (Noo)
Get this, the Witch has made my chest
It's permanent nightly visiting nest (What?)
It ain't no clothes that I look good in
I'm the motherf**in' big red train that couldn't
I got no family, I stole they sh** (Okay)
Restraining orders and I still won't quit
I hit rock bottom, and then I fell in a hole
And then I fell through the floor of that hole some more
I been missing for a year, nobody's lookin' (I am)
I got beat down and my sh** tookin' (Ooh)
I look ahead and all I see is more of the same
Or this self inflicted bullet hole pourin' my brain
[Suicide Hotline Operator]
Oooookay, I understand that you're in pain, okay?
I understand everything you're going through
I've been there myself, okay?
Now, your pain is my pain, alright?
And I feel your pain, and I wanna be your friend
Just me and you, friends
[Verse - Violent J + (Suicide Hotline Operator)]
I dream about cuttin' heads off with a shovel (What?)
The dreams are gettin' serious, think I'm in trouble (Oh my..)
I don't hold memory for more than an hour
I'm tired as f** and I'm drained of power
I ain't half way there and I'm all outta time
I'm like a crushed light bulb, all outta shine (Oh no..)
I been around the world but no place is home
I wanna see the other side when I face this chrome
I'm bu*t naked, I been jackin' off gettin' drunk
It's my last hours alive, who gives a f**? (Me)
It don't matter, I'm doin' the sh** in the garage
Tryin' to make it easier for them to clean my head splaage
This b**h I loved, I hope she finds me
Still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me (Wait, wait..)
I'm 'bout to do it (*beep*)
Can you hold for a second? (Wait a min..)
[Violent J + Girl]
Hello?
(Hey, what's up?)
Where you at?
(Right down the street)
With who?
(My girl Shannon, we were wonderin' if we could stop by)
Well sh**, yeah, come on by
(Really?)
Yeah..hey hey hey hey
(I know, bring some blunts alright)
(*chuckle*) Alright, bye