[Verse 1: Sevin]
It's been six months since I snatched up my pen to write
Overwhelmed by this hell and tremendous plight
I'm asking peace could you spend the night
There was a time I saw clearly
But I'm weary and I've dimmed the lights
Stretched to my limits and I'm wishing God would end my life
Still protecting my image I pretend to fight
Shedding tears on divorce papers that I send my wife
Back in the hood, look around ain't got a friend in sight
Born feeling like the Golden child
But I'm older now, war torn soul of Colin Powell
I'm cold and foul and stuck with this low morale
And I don't know how to cope cause I'm sober now
Watching everything I worked for the last few years
Become everything that's hurtful, alas new fears
But the masks dude wears ain't no gla** you hear
He drinks pain from a cup and he ain't splashed two tears
[Chorus: Sevin]
If I knew then what I know now
Sorry but I just didn't know how
To make it right I push through the pain and strife
Trying to find my way home
If it wears me I'd never tell you
I'd promise that I would never fail you
My hearts gone cold on this long hard road
And I'm finally home
[Verse 2: Sevin]
And I'm sitting in the storm when its pouring
But I like when it wets me
Something about the strife that affects me heart icy as Gretzky
Trying to get away from life it won't let me
The ropes to tight on my neck see
I'm infatuated with the cage I wouldn't like to be set free
The one's who supposed to love me
Rather fight than accept me
Skip one skip two go right into step three
On the roof with a cross hoping lighting don't deck me
And blood it's sad we couldn't hold on to what we had
Square woman with a gutter lad
Hope that little n***a meant what he said
When he wished he had another dad
Cause there's going to be another lover in his mothers pad
I keep my head on through the drama knowing that
Life brings pain, yup domino effect
Suppressing notions of emotions and my prayers show it
No, I don't care for it but yo I'm prepared for it
[Chorus: Sevin]
[Verse 3: Sevin]
And I'm back on my grind last time just God and me
Flame dumping pain pumping through my artery
I will never again let a woman harness me
Honestly right now I feel enormous B
Enough to put a pharmacy to in my palm and see
If the pills that it is filled with can calm the see
I trust the one from the tomb who was honorably
Was resurrected and his wounds can make Thomas see
I ain't sweating all this threaten in economy
And I ain't caring if them terrorist is bombing me
Cause all I see this ministers throne of grace
And the King who sits in it with a glowing face
I know the cobra waits, for me to fold and break
If the load is great then he cultivates no mistakes
Yes, that's how I know I get the victory
Today's tribulation is just tomorrows history
I'm here cause he chose me, not cause I chose him
I'm knowing I owe him a lot more than moping
And not being broken and opening up
The very word he has spoken and soaking it up
So Master can I ask ya, to forgive my blasphemy
And give me strength so I can give you what you ask of me
And I'm never holding back
Until I get to heaven and i'm never knowing lack
[Chorus: Sevin]