[intro]
I know I don't usually make songs like this but
I dont know just something about this beat I just f**in... felt like I had I do it. Hope you like it
[hook: Seth Rock]
After what you have done to me
I'm so numb inside it's hard to feel the pain
You pulled the rug out from under me
You tore my life apart now I start to see the change
It's like you holdin a gun to me
No matter what I do I just cannot get away
Tell me what has become of me
There's nothin left of me but at least there's still the rain
It lets me know I'm alive
[Verse 1]
I know it's been a while and you don't even think about it now
sh** I don't mean to I just see you in my dreams and I don't
Wanna wake up to face reality I'm out of it
It sickens me to think about it now I need an outlet though
I'm sick of seein visions of how it was how it isn't now
It coulda been the two of us I'm livd and I'm trippin now
I'm feelin f**in stupid cause a part of me was pickin out
Truth in all your lies, but my softer side was in denial
I always felt like something was up, but couldn't pin it down
So I would dismiss it as paranoia just to get it out
My f**in mind like I am now
I admit It I need help, I'm finally now findin out
The fire lit inside that I been tryna douse
Is the very life of me, my livelihood it died with you
It took me all this time to realize the sh** to find the dull
Light and try igniting it through rhymes just to find me again, after what you had
[hook: Seth Rock]
After what you have done to me
I'm so numb inside it's hard to feel the pain
You pulled the rug out from under me
You tore my life apart now I start to see the change
It's like you holdin a gun to me
No matter what I do I just cannot get away
Tell me what has become of me
There's nothin left of me but at least there's still the rain
It lets me know I'm alive
[Verse 2]
Least in the physical, mentally tormented
I'm just tryna get a grip on this I miss you one minute
Then another minute pa**es and you're just another b**h I met
Significant other to another insignificant
I doubt you're listenin but if you are, know I meant this as a means to vent
Its history I know, I had to visit it
To get it off my chest don't get offended this is jut an image
Painted by a mentally messed up individual
I just wanna let you know you're special, though I let you go
I loved you and I never won't, just not as a significant other now but as a ghost
The image that I had of you, past the beauty as a whole
You're inner beauty mind and soul, your heart, the reason mine is broken
Why the love inside it's gone, but ima be alright in coping, all I'm tryna find is closure
With every rhyme I feel like I am gettin closer though
So ima keep on writing if it takes this whole entire notebook
[hook: Seth Rock]
After what you have done to me
I'm so numb inside it's hard to feel the pain
You pulled the rug out from under me
You tore my life apart now I start to see the change
It's like you holdin a gun to me
No matter what I do I just cannot get away
Tell me what has become of me
There's nothin left of me but at least there's still the rain
It lets me know I'm alive
[Verse 3]
I hate the though of losing you, I'm losin it my screws are loose
I'm talkin to myself and talkin back and that's the usual
sh** I'm so used to it I forget that it's unusual
'Die Alone' is on repeat-one I'm seein funerals
And you in all my dreams now a beautiful fantasy
Contrasted by a gloomy reality, sh** I'm panicking
Delusional and manically depressed, a mess I'm frantically
Scribbling these rhymes, the only way I know to handle it
Solely for my sanity cause no one is a fan of me
But I manage to keep it together for better or worse I'm forever in search
Of a better way, everyday that I pray, let it get better don't let it get worse
But if it gets worse ima still just convert all this negative energy into a verse
Cynical entity in the beginning but then I began to realize I can handle these
In-stu-ru-men-tals me-chan-ic-al-ly so I plan to proceed with em hand me those beats
I'm goin retarded I know where my heart is, as long as I know where my art and my daughter hip-
-hop is a part of me, ima keep at it get better go harder regardless of all that you...
[hook: Seth Rock]
...done to me
I'm so numb inside it's hard to feel the pain
You pulled the rug out from under me
You tore my life apart now I start to see the change
It's like you holdin a gun to me
No matter what I do I just cannot get away
Tell me what has become of me
There's nothin left of me but at least there's still the rain
It lets me know I'm alive