I haven't spoken to you in a long time
But it feels like yesterday I left your car a lonely kid
With tears in my eyes
What did you expect from me?
A little kid too f**ing weak
To stand up to my enemies
Dad come on, I'm just thirteen
I'll never be you prodigy
Accept that it's not meant to be
And I'm sorry for falling short
The things that I left behind don't make me upset
Because your apologies
They never meant that much to me
I'm so sick of trying to fight this sense of contempt
Because your priorities
They never once included me
You're patiently waiting in this hole again
But I kept in my head and to myself
So force your ways on someone else
You never gave me room to grow on my own
I feigned my interests in all your hobbies
Just so I could have a shot at making you happy
You know I tried
(God, how I tried)
But it's so hard with no similarities
The things that I left behind don't make me upset
Because your apologies
They never meant that much to me
I'm so sick of trying to fight this sense of contempt
Because your priorities
They never once included me
You're patiently waiting in this hole again
But I kept in my head and to myself
So force your ways on someone else
You never gave me room to grow on my own
It took some time, but I find comfort in this message that I write
Because you weren't much to lose
I never needed you
It was time to shed that callus skin
Because you were too hard on me
So I'll say goodbye to all the times you called
And breathed honesty
And breathed honesty
And breathed honesty