(You have a history of fits, moods, black outs, hearing voices, we brought you here to save you from the irrevocable damage you intended upon yourself. You've tried to k** yourself twice!) [an excerpt from Woolf's Long Hours: Virginia Woolf's Temporal Lobe]
Oh this king is weary and sad (oh no the white boy) This warped gentleman (but I'm not trying to martyr anyone) decked out in seal skins (my life's great) musty and fearless
My mom called me a devil's child, the abortion she never had
Got kicked down the stairs for torching the house, couldn't pick a better dad
Met the tabs, at 14 before I tried weed, hash or whatever's bad
My better half's beheaded cats and brought it to school on a bike and a JanSport
But was late so I didn't attend the cla**
Befriended rap, formed a syllabus and styled the strength in that
I was a garage band drummer, ripped grunge pants, played lefty like Cobain
Surfer Nirvana fan, forearms scarred, so much blood dripped
Read Bundy's biography under lava lamp
'93, microdots and grams
Graduate C average, '96 dropped college plans
Peak sk** winter, copt some land
500 a month, dog, Ford Escort, and piranha tank
Closet scamp, verilux bulb, potting plants
First time was no luck (f**) male pollen plants
Then Honey Dreads from Big Mint brought the Holland dank
98' rolling J32 belt-drive Geminis and rocked the flams
Mom's piano had me in a gothic trance
Typewrite attendant
All work and no play makes Jak a dull boy
Formed a friendship, dad's righty guitar had me playing upside down like Hendrix
Looking demented, razor edge rips
My first ex shot me up in the bathroom during an intervention
I dropped and woke up to medics
Paddles fairy boat me back to the ambulate
Vegetable head like lettuce
Stomach pumps turn my intestines, til they hit the gas like Zyklon-B pellets
Who shot me up (who) I think it was the one in the nurse clothes (oh yeah)
I'm the cuckoo bird who flew the coop
Flew loops and perch flows
Disturbed glow, waited for inertia
Got admitted hurt, clothes scented of turf smoke
Stood at the hospital longer than an intern though
I just walked out onto a dirt road, into the earth cold, lugging through first snow
Victim of a burnt home
Homeless, warming frozen hands over canisters of Sterno
Hurl coke, brain rush, crush buffalo herds on turbo
Perverse pros
Get in your stomach like vertigo
I bite nobody like newborns
I use to get so wetted when I walked across gra** the dew formed
You ain't like me kids, I'm cocoon born
Hatched from an egg covered in goo and blue spores
At noon on June 24 1978 it grew horns
And left the womb torn
Charming
Family dinner, we ate with plates, spoons, forks but no talking
My mom use to call me an abortion
So I take inner pain out on my foreskin
Caught playing with a dead cat when my parents walked in
They sent me to Four Winds
Met a girl who shot up dope and showed me tracks collapse when she draw in
Love at first lust, comparing burns and who had the worst cuts
When we held hands, we s**ed orgones from the earth up
Blood couple, shared needles, immersed trust, God nursed us
But once the uppers hit, I go from outgoing to introverted
Pervert tendencies inverted
Film my neighbor's daughter, she caught me
American beauty, the obsess worsened
It went further, dreams of murder
Um okay need to stop those thoughts (nevermind)
Human pot roast
My clock's broke like Alex but I'm not cloned
I've been in 'Nam since a demigod, tunnel rat and foxholes
Military sheet corner, t-shirts and socks rolled
In the box told what to do and what not to watch
And what not to stop so I ended up not ??
Lexapro, Dipricol, Remeron on the cot froze
Hey Sebastian, I need some coffee bro. Dude hit me up bro, I'm gonna sniff some lines of f**ing tan greens man hahaha