{Verse 1}
Speed for breakfast and I spin
Weak and careless is all I've ever been
Drowning in a lake of sin
Mother tells me time and time again
Selfish intake for my brain
Trying to feel sane again
{Chorus}
Self indulgence and fake romance
I'm longing for some change
I'm being honest
I just want my thoughts to be blocked out from the pouring rain
Self indulgence and fake romance
I'm longing for some change
I'm being honest
I just want my thoughts to be blocked out from the pouring rain
{Verse 2}
Can't show emotions to people who care
And dared to ask me why, why I am always so high?
I'm ready to die
Cross the river stix but no goodbye
I jump inside and decompose
Destroy my soul
But maybe one more line of coke to wake me up
Destroy my gut
With drugs I take to stay awake
Words can't help and I'm to blame
{Chorus}
Self indulgence and fake romance
Longing for some change
I'm being honest
I just want my thoughts to be blocked out from the pouring rain
Self indulgence and fake romance
I'm longing for some change
I'm being honest
I just want my thoughts to be blocked out from the pouring rain
{Verse 3}
So much pain
All for worthless gain
In a field of grass and hay
Crying softly as I lay
Vision's blurry as I stare
I don't want you all to care
I don't want you all to care
I don't want you all to care
I don't want you all to care
I don't want you all to care
{Outro}
Just stay awake
Just stay awake
To fall asleep
Inside my {?}
I won't stick
I never rest my head on my pillow and faint
Never rest my head on my pillow and faint
I wanna be {?}
{?}