I sit here writing this letter,
knowning I should've treated you better.
But now it's too late I've sealed my fate,
now I wait feeling faint.
Knowing I've taken the pill,
I feel I've had my fill,
I have no will, I had to k**,
it was my only bill.
I don't know how I should feel,
I know this is for real,
knowing I'll never heal,
and everything seems so teal,
spinning on the wheel that is life.
now I hold my knife, waiting for them
to come for me, run from me.. not so
safe around me. I find that all these
questions surround me, they have begun
to bound me. All the sound I hear in the
up and down. And I have found that I am
on the mound, searching until I come around.
but I didn't, and now it's too late,
I sealed my fate.
I HAVE NO WILL, I TOOK THE PILL
I HAD TO KILL, I HAD MY FILL,
I AM SO MAD AND YET SO SAD.
They wanted to help me,
I woundn't listen,
now I am missin' and find myself reminissin',
now I am in a bind, lined in the path of the wrath
that awaits me. Debates me, will face me, will
race me to the end of the tunnel, then I'm picked
up in a funnel of nothing, knowing back then I was
somthing. At least one thing, then I hear the ring
of the bell, wanting to yell, and then I just fell
to the depths of hell where I would sell my soul
and roll, hoping not to burn, only then could I
learn the wake of mistake, that I was only a fake,
but instead in the lake of fire I burn, in
regret of my ways, lost in the maze, and it all
began to haze.
I HAVE NO WILL, I TOOK THE PILL
I HAD TO KILL, I HAD MY FILL,
I AM SO MAD AND YET SO SAD.
Why did I swallow the pill?
I didn't want this,
now I miss it all, I didn't have many flaws,
I only broke the laws, and then time would pause.
I would eventaully fall, it was too late when
I saw the light, if I might come back again,
I want to fight to come back again, I want
to unpack again, but I lack again.
I cannot return, I must sit here and burn,
for I have sinned, now and again, I am pinned
by the wind that blows in the breeze, the same
wind that blows the leaves, it hears my pleas, but
knows I must pay the fee, for k**ing me, when
I stop feeling me.
I HAVE NO WILL, I TOOK THE PILL
I HAD TO KILL, I HAD MY FILL,
I AM SO MAD AND YET SO SAD.
Right before I took it,
I might have tried to fight if I only knew,
seeing that the only few who do will end up
suffering, never forgetting, the nothingness
that awaits thee. I am dead now, but I died
long before this, trying to ignor this,
I wore years ago, I alreay know how low I was to
go to the point where I stayed. Then I could
feel myself fade, in the wade of the current
I rest, waiting for the waves to pull me
out the sea, where I will lead myself to the
brink of d**h, awaiting my final breath.
I HAVE NO WILL, I TOOK THE PILL
I HAD TO KILL, I HAD MY FILL,
I AM SO MAD AND YET SO SAD.
Ten minutes have pa**ed.
I am surprised to last this long,
finding I am still wrong in my ways,
now and forever I will be stuck in the haze.
Lost in the maze, still ina daze.
I dropped dead,
not from a bullet of lead,
but from everything I just said,
lying a foot from my bed,
seeing now everything all red.
- and I was right, I do regret,
now that I have no soul I feel a pull
that is crushing me, burning me, the thing
that ends up k**ing me.
Allways remember me,
not for the times I lied or the
way I died, remember the times on the ride
then I would arise and surprize all who doubted me.
Shouteted for me and would plea for me to be the
one who'd they'd see.
Always remember, that I wasn't a pretender,
but I would surrender.
Always remember
always remember
always remember
approx: 3:20