All those years I can see clearly in my rear view
The man I was, the man I wasn't
The man I was to you wasn't who I should've been
Back then I could be anything I want to be
All depends on what he brought to me
What he had that week that either made me strong or weak
I took my insecurities out on you, I guess nothing's changed
Even though I stopped using, I'm still the same
Still using the same tactics for getting my way
Still using attacks and at the same time
Wondering why be sober if inside I'm still the same guy
Maybe during all those years I didn't grow at all
So the spring I thought I had, was summer, now I'm in the fall
After all is said and done, I'm still the one you hate
I'm still the one you love, the one you can't escape
I'm so sorry that I've hurt you so much
Wish that you could let go, wish that you could not love
Me anymore, you deserve more than you've gotten here
Over the last year, syndicated, my mistakes, and your tears
And not ever did I see one, never let it show
Maybe cuz I'm cold and you love the snow
You see the beauty in it, like you did me
But I'm destroying the future that I still see
In my dreams, I guess love is blind
You're an angel and I'm nothing but a waste of time
Trying to impress you by pretending to fly
Trying my best to keep my tears off of the page
While not losing my grip on your hand up on the stage
I want you here with me, the joy and the pain
Whatever weather we face, the sunshine and the rain
But I know there's only so much storm you can take
I understand if you can't stay
Cuz of the last year...