[Intro : $cottie P.]
And the people say...
And the people say...
[Verse: $cottie P.]
I wonder if God actually hate me
Or if this money will ever save me
It's kinda crazy, but lately I been thinkin'
That maybe it be so different if my girl kept that baby
I wonder if rapping will make me famous
I wonder if I'll find a way to say this
I wonder if I go to a place with a different language
Will they know what my name is, and praise it (I don't know)
I wonder if people will remember my last breath
I wonder if there's a place to go after d**h
I wonder if when I die, will I meet Jimi Hendrix
I wonder if when I cry, do God actually listen
I wonder if people know I almost didn't go to prom
Cause I'm scared of commitment
I ain't to UConn cause I'm scared of commitment
Wonder if Kevin and Earl hate the idea of my triplets
Even though we kicked it since we was younger
I wonder if my mother would cry, if she found out how I'm living
I spent my whole damn life trynna triple my digits
Just so I could buy some time to find out what I'm missin'
I wonder if the thugs still say what's up to me
I wonder if my little brother still look up to me
I wonder if my sister's friends stopped lovin' me
Callin' me and textin' me bout nights up at the Double Tree
I wonder if happiness is just a myth or
Ignorance is bliss or
If I'll find out what I'm here for
If my ex still got them pictures
But I ain't really worried about her, that's just the liquor
I wonder if there's any truth behind an old soul
Oh no, Kevin said I should've brought that Rose Gold
I won't stop until the game up in a chokehold
"How many shots you had?"
I stopped countin' after ocho
I wonder if my Mama know that I lie to her
Because I would die for her
Kiana my sister, and you know that I would ride for her
Confide in her, late nights I would cry to her
So if you touch me, you don't want to see that side of her
I wonder if the hoes still jealous of me
I wonder if there's something my friends ain't telling to me
This my story and you know I ain't selling for free
But if nobody buying then you know I'm just selling to fiends
Sadly, lying every single day to keep my parents happy
Wonder if my white friends is calling me "Blacky"
Say my hair is nappy
I wonder if Jamie know it was me who robbed her daddy
He was sitting at the red light in his caddy
Then we pulled up in a cabby
Took everything he had, and put it up in a bag
I did it without a mask, they sayin' that this a fad
This a lifestyle
God taking everybody when it's nice out
Ain't no tellin' what she do with the lights out
Taking all these d** to find out what the hype bout
Man, I wonder what it feel like to die right now
Ooo, this is life now
Ooh, this is life now
I guess this life now
Life now, Lights out
[Bridge: $cottie P. and Imani D.]
If rain drops fall on to my window
(I hope it don't wake me x2)
If rain drops fall on to my window
(I hope it don't wake me)
(I hope it don't break me)
[Intro x2]