[Verse 1]
Remember one time dog, this fiend owed the boss
Put peanut bu*ter on her p**y, let his pits lick it off
Back when I was living on Flanders
Seen another dope fiend beat another with a hammer
Remember at the park, seen a n***a at the payphone
Got rocked in his dome, momma picked me up and ran home
Was like f**ing seven years old
When I first seen a fiend try to light a rock off the stove
Damn near burned his top lip off, so my mind ticked off
Desensitized to a lot of things, mind would drift off
Wish it was what I seen on TV
I snapped outta that, unc' beating on my auntie
Gunshots outside was sorta like fireworks
We know they ain't fireworks, it's December 21st
Cold winter with a kerosene heater
On the couch so cold can't take off your sneakers, and it's torture
[Hook]
Look in my mind and see the horrors
All the sh** that I've seen, n***a it's torture
[Verse 2]
I feel like a prisoner of war
Reacting sporadically to what the mind absorb
Probably need a shrink, can't get a wink
So I smoke a lot of kush and pop a Xanax to sleep
Close my eyes, look up, fiend said 1 for 8
Can tell that I scared him by the look on my face
Reached in my pocket served him nervous as a surgeon
Can't believe where I'm at, 'posed be writing verses
Heard a knock at the door, 'nother fiend wanted fo'
Gave him what he came for, told him go to the sto'
Let me get a box a box of Swishers, Faygo Cola
Gave his a** another stone now guess what it's over
He ain't come back, before I could look back
I heard the wood on the door crack, and they yelling "Police!"
With this work up in my jeans, man this a bad dream, and it's torture
[Hook]