I tried to recognize that you were in pain
From holding me up. I was slouched down further than I've ever been
Soon as you could stand up freely
You had to kneel to see me thrashing
Beneath the weight of it all
I saw the life leave your eyes
I'm sorry it defeated you, and I'm sorry that you'll live with that forever now
The timing was hard. We were miserable before that night in the hospital
I'll always care
I'll always care
Oh god, I fear I'm the only one emerging from this thing
Still getting no sleep, still living transient by design
And I just need some time