My Life Lyrics
(Verse 1)
Flippin' through my verses watch the pages overlap
Reminiscing bout the days I played up on the cul-de-sac
Heard 'It Takes A Nation Of Millions To Try And Hold Us Back'
After that I wrote a rap, chose to stroll a lonely path
My decisions got ‘em looking at their son ashamed
Only worsened mother's pain, most will hurt but some will gain
Overworked and underpaid, puffin' on some heavy gra**
I ain't making any cash, gotta make this penny last
Cause lately I've just been decision making poorly
I've been giving up on shorties, I've been living off of 40's
I've been learning, I've been searching, I've discussing our existence
Only to discover that it doesn't make a difference
Your son is gifted with exceptional talent
I know it's unrealistic but I'm accepting the challenge
Perfecting my balance, mastering the sk**s of this art form
Drugs, money, and car doors. What is it all for?
In My Life…
(Verse 2)
I never thought I'd be the one to let my parents down
Never thought I'd be the son to leave my mom embarra**ed now
I've ruined every chance and yeah I've had my fair amount
Searching through my bank account and questioning my whereabouts
But I guess that's a good problem to have
Because alotta kids don't even have a father or dad
It's like I always seem to miss the train and can't afford the bus
Can't avoid the boiling rush, panicked and I lost their trust
But then again did you ever give ‘em a reason to
While all they ever did is sacrifice to be with you
And all you ever did is lie when it's convenient to
Don't mean to argue but I respectively disagree with you
But then again you really taught me what I needed then
Taught me how to deal with problems, taught me how to be a man
You're influence is in my mind and my craft
So I'mma take what you've taught me and then apply it to rap
Cause This Is My Life…..
(Verse 3)
I never asked permission cause I'd never get it back
I've made some bad decisions, now I gotta live with that
I know I let you down and I am really sorry that
It came to this, I never wanted that you're where my heart is at
Since I was 9 I could write a rhyme that could ride the rhythm
It's my decision, I'm sorry mommy that I ain't listen
Feigning to damage mics, hoping I can win again
Seems I've overan*lyzed life instead of living it
I'd like to get my stuff to public, I ain't got enough to budget
Need someone to knuckle up with, really it's a touchy subject
I see my own reflection and I wanna s**er punch it
I got good intentions but sometimes I'm just a f**in' f** up
But I got purpose, pa**ion, patience, and pride
Put all the hatred to the side, gotta stay and survive
So now I'm, thinking of God every day I'm alive
So anything I ever find I'mma take it in stride
Cause This Is My Life…..