Completely Exposed Lyrics
(Static's Verse)
I've had some lonely nights and empty days
I let the boom box blast just so I can throw the rest away
I'm recollecting while the record plays
Just looking back on what I've overcame and seen how my perceptions changed
And maybe that's how this obsession came
A young teen struggling with depression, stress, and aggressive rage
I'm self-reflecting and expressing pain
Cause there's a deepness in my heart and that's exactly where this message stays
And when I'm gone I hope my message plays
For every troubled teen stuck in a vicious anti-depressant phase
For anyone who's ever lost their way
For mothers working three jobs just to make sure the electrics paid
Just know you're a hero in every way
And don't you dwell upon the shortcoming realities of yesterday
They say I'm young so what I say is strange
They say I've grown so much, but in my own eyes I've never changed
Sometimes I rhyme without direction or clause
Sometimes I find my body acting in distress and exhaust
Sometimes I need some guidance, my perspective is off
Sometimes I wanna acknowledge all this deception and fraud, yeah
Sometimes I feel so strong I'll never take a loss
Sometimes I wanna reinstate what's up to date and false
Sometimes I wanna redirect and educate the lost
Sometimes my mind gets too hectic to separate my thoughts
So I apologize for all the trouble that I'm causing you
Sorry mom and dad but this is something that I gotta do
If you believe in it yourself than nobody is stopping you
Live under the impression that nothing is impossible
I'm never stalling, gotta keep moving
I gotta keep the rhythm deep inside my head so I can dream to it
Kept coming back after regrouping
And I put all of my heart in my music because it's deep rooted
You ever feel like the world is against you?
And nobody seems to understand your personal issues?
Ever loose track of time gripping firm on a pencil?
Ever listen to a verse where every word is suspenseful?
My flow is nasty like a girl on her menstrual
I've been living kind of timid, but determined to let loose
The gla** is half full, cause what's a curse is a gift too
Can give the right advice but every person will misuse
You know your life is gone when poking holes beneath your skin
You now your life is wrong when you enclose the needle in
You're closer to defeat and you don't know if you can win
Get closer to your peeps because we need you as a friend
If anyone's opposing this then those'll be condemned
I wrote this with the notion that my quotes will leave the pen
I spit this with emotions from within
I spit this till my main man Zoo won't have to hopelessly depend
I spit this till I'm vibing and my mind is in a zone
I'm digging deep and rhyming off the bottom of the dome
I spit this for my brothers down to ride when I come home
I do this so my mother won't be sobbing on the phone
Cause if you're optimistic you can rise out the gutter
If you survive through the winter you can thrive in the summer
All that we can do is look into the eyes of our mother
And just hope that all of these difficult times get outnumbered
So I'm, getting lifted off some new haze
My head's nodding to the beat taking rips off of huge J's
I'm feeling great I hope this mood stays
I'm this feeling could last forever but unfortunately moods change
I look at it as one of two ways
I'm either on the right track or a victim of a fool's rage
I'm sitting on a chair with loose legs
I live with no regrets and cherish every breath like it's doomsday
So we gon' party leave the roof raised
Cause I don't even want a job that judges talent off of school grades
A free thinker leaving booth's slayed
My dues paid so I promise that I'll consistently spew flames
A new mic or a new stage
A noose tight around the neck of a writer leaving bruised veins
So you can praise these other dudes names
Cause I'll be fine at the end of the day if I know that the truth's saved
(Zoo's Verse)
Five years old, rain boots jumping over a puddle
Ten years later, high school, smoking weed, getting into trouble
One year after that, got introduced to pills
And it was a dark spiral of deceit and cheap thrills
Before I knew it was a problem
I was withdrawing off oxycontin, steady scheming and plotting
My warm heart became rotten
Stealing money, flipping pharmaceuticals
While my mom's slaved away at a desk in a cubical
By the way, I was once in love
No really, I was once in love
I was under the influence and she took me above
She was the anchor to my ship and together we walked through some sh**
Remember that time after prom at seaside
When we split a bottle, laughed and then cried
Well I do, it s**s that we lied
But we were both young and stupid when we said to each other “love you till I die”
Or that afternoon in central park
We held hands till it got dark, slowly walked back to my place
Wish I realized I was in a race against time
Because now I'm in central park alone writing this rhyme
And one night I held her as she cried herself to sleep
I felt her pain and I guess I had my own demons down deep
Cause after that, I relapsed in a week
I became fragile and weak
Still I couldn't let down my armor
My habit pushed her away but I swear to god in my heart I'd never harm her
If I didn't let the d** win maybe we'd still be together
Probably not even though I swear I did change for the better
I gotta silence the demons before I can silence the haters
And truthfully, who the f** am I to rate her?
I felt a lot of pain, but I cause a lot more
Like the day my little brother found two buns in my sock drawer
If I was lying I'd be smiling feeling ok
But it's the truth so my mind is mixed up, my hearts astray
Up and down, side-to-side, chemical rollercoaster
In a shootout with the devil, got my gun out of the holster
Now I'm smoking marlboros, moving through the memories of my past
Grateful I found stability again at last
I've had far worse days than today
So inside that makes me feel ok (life's getting better)
Trying to stay clean on the path to be serine
Only a handful truly know what I mean
And for those who do, I commend you and pray
Cause I know that it's hard to get through the day
I'm sick of loosing people, and sick of people worrying about loosing me
I gotta open my eyes so I can see
Working the twelve steps, hitting the rooms
And honestly you wouldn't last twelve steps in my shoes