Astral Projection
[Verse 1: Welsh]
Living out the nightmare somebody tell me the message please
Cause im living lesson free
Friends been thinking less of me
While im searching for the best in me im giving myself therapy
Spinning on the broken vinyl searching for the remedy
Demons blessing me & angels resting see ive been cursed all along
The sunset over the mountains holds strong
The waves crash wrong & the shore line is barely holding on
The sun explodes & nature is my home
Spirits in the sky & spirits in the ground
Im losing control of how I react
Attack the black & when I close my eyes I leave my body & I can fly
I can hide behind objects a normal human can't see
Im on a mission to stay existent & be everything I can be
Im wishing to stay demented & do everything I plan see over time you obtain the strain
The things you lose you begin to gain
Walking the world like a second nature
The new year im late for & these few tears I hate more
I dont feel like a human
I feel like a zombie, a maniac, a creeper, or a spirit
Out of my body & in a grave like the real nick shot meI'm looking for hope
I see demons in the shadows but I know the real nick got me
Lost in my own personality
If I asked my 7 year old self what he thought of me he'd be afraid of this reality & its sad to say how im getting through these days is still magic to me
[Hook: Welsh]
Looking up into the night sky
Always been a shy guy
Wondering when it'll be my time
Im out of my body floating
In my dreams hoping
Im out of my body floating
Astral projection
[Verse 2: Welsh]
What im faced with is everything im displaced with
My girl loves me but its hard to face it that everyday Im not sure with my own thoughts & I just wanna be basic
I wish I was care free then maybe id stress less & be able to take it
Cause each step feels like a mile
Ive been here a while
They say experience with time but im more out of my mind than ever
Everybody says it gets better
Thats what k**s me they dont understand im racing a straight path & every street sign says it'll never get better
Living through the lucid nightmare as I stare at my physical body
Hopin the real nick got me
I hope this soul rots see its a catastrophe mixed with a beautiful masterpiece
Its astral projection teaching me the right message
Its life giving me the right lesson
Lost in my own personality
If I asked my 7 year old self what he thought of me he'd be afraid of this reality, its sad to say how im getting through these days is magic to me
Hook
[Verse 3: Welsh]
I feel bad for myself when nick makes music
He abuses it & uses it to tell his feelings
I dont even write the music
The pen is just in my hand
Demons were never a part of the plan
Unsaid thoughts make me understand this is more than serious
& Nick if your hearing this were both fearing this
I feel no control
I feel no emotion
I just write the emotions Im holding
These outta body experiences are horrific
I just hope one day I learn & feel terrific
Im sad & lonely
I dont know if angels or demons who control it & itd be best to not know
Writing notes on my arm
Playing like a rookie with the mind state of a don
Scratches on my heart, while success bringing me harm
And Im pushing for acceptance till im gone
Lost in my own personality
If I asked my 7 year old self what he thought of me he'd be afraid of this reality & its sad to say how im gettin through these days is still magic to me
Hook