(Verse I)
Heroin was the best girlfriend I ever had.
Piercing my veins, just to numb the pain.
Lose some weight, & Mask my hate.
She was always there, until I was alone in a cell.
I threw everything away trying to fill the void in my chest.
From where you left.. Tame my Insomnia, & just f**ing rest.
but in the end, it was all for the best.
'cause I'm not meant to be alive, but here I am.
2 collapsed veins later, & left with my friend, a razor.
(Verse II)
When I was shooting up dope, & Snorting lines of Coke.
I was not getting high, I was wanting to die.
My chest felt so empty, & a few Xanax helped me not feel guilty.
No razor could drain all the pain, I bled back.
Everyone could see the hurt in my eyes, & My arms covered in Tracks.
but I'd just pop an Oxycotton & let it be forgotten.
I blamed everyone but myself, begged for then denied any help.
Stayin' out all night at raves, Trippin' bad. The ba** became the only heartbeat I had.
Come home wasted, just to cry in my closet. at 16 I finally f**ing lost it.
(Verse III)
Fighting to stay alive, since the day I was 9.
Almost 20 now, & everyday I still consider suicide.
I'm not insane, I was just int too much pain.
Half my teenage years spent in pysch wards, laying in my d**h bed.
Yet to me, I was still fine, it was all just in my head.
but I learned that happiness is a choice, & comes from within.
No one but yourself can make you happy, so don't depend.
Moral of the story; Love yourself 'cause no one else will..