[Verse 1: Regzzo]
I feel like I'm a born sinner
Everyday I'm wakin' up and livin' life like it's a f**in' dinner
And I don't even eat it I just sit and ponder
Like a philosopher I seek the knowledge I've not learned
I swear I'm on my f**in' grind
And now I'm starting to believe all of my f**in' lies
I'm makin' money off of sh** that I got pressured to try
And now the jokes on you, cause I cut all of our ties
You find it hard to believe that I've built a fanbase
All from nothing but my blood, sweat and tears runnin' down my face
But I did it all for you, and now I'm doing it for me while saying f** you too
You feel my pa**ion through these lyrics, feel the tension through my voice
Work so hard I swear to god I might never feel joy
But I do this for the fans, for the people who believe in me
You never know your destiny until you reach the ending
And so I write this verse in memory of everything I cherish deeply, holding back the tears, no weeping
I get messages anonymous from people holding promises that they'll become somebody all because my verse inspired it
And f** it I'll never be what I want to be so I'll just keep on doin' me, the stress lives for eternity, but maybe if I don't trip
Over the little things and start to see the world for what it's really meant to be
Like it or not, it's who I am
Don't define me by my wisdom, just define me by my plan
I'm just trynna chase my dream and I swear people wanna see me fail
Maybe if I make it everyone will walk my trail
And I don't even know if Imma see my dad again but I just couldn't move back in, I had to leave before I made things worse than they've already been
With all the alcohol and d** and constant searching for who I am
It's been a long journey
But it's only beginning and honestly the thought of failing scares me but I keep on heading to the top
Cause even if I fail I'll still remember what it took to bring me down, still depressed but never frown, I
Slowly start to reminisce
About the times when I was bullied and I couldn't take it
The only person I could talk to about all of my problems was my grandma now she's gone and it still f**s with me, I notice that she's looking down on top of me
I see her everywhere from street signs, to sweet dreams, from these lines, to blue seas, to everything that makes me happy
She f**in' raised me now I'm supposed to just be calm and happy?
But on the brighter side I guess that sh** was mean to be
Cause she's the reason that I'm writing all this poetry
And to this day I never thought it'd be a part of me
You never know your destiny until you reach the ending