Recoil - Want lyrics

I want to know how it'll end I want to be sure of what it'll cost I want to strangle the stars for all they promised me I want you to call me on your drug phone I want to keep you alive so there is always the possibility of murder later I want to be there when you learn the cost of desire I want you to understand that my malevolence is just a way to win I want the name of the ruiner I want matches in case I have to suddenly burn I want you to know that being kind is overrated I want to write my secret across your sky I want to watch you lose control I want to watch you lose I want to know exactly what it's going to take I want to see you insert yourself into glory I want your touches to scar me so I'll know where you've been I want you to watch when I go down in flames I want a list of atrocities done in your name I want to reach my hand into the dark and feel what reaches back

I want to remember when my nightmares were clearer I want to be there when your hot black rage rips wide open I want to taste my own kind I want to be wrapped in cold wet sheets to see if it's different on this side I want you to come on strong I want to leave you out in the cold I want the exact same thing... but different I want some soft d**... some soft, soft d** I want to throw you I want you to know I know I want to know if you read me I want to swing with my eyes shut and see what I hit I want to know just how much you hate me so I can predict what you'll do I want you to know the wounds are self-inflicted I want a controlling interest I want to be somewhere beautiful when I die I want to be your secret hater I want to stop destroying you but I can't And I want and I want and I want And I will always be hungry And I want and I want and I want...