(XEL)
You see this winter cold has got me freezing within my soul
There's nothing out there to warm me up, they leaving him in the snow
Try teaching em if you're bold, no reason for them know
Frequencies getting low, knowing that we in a scripted show
So... play your part whether it's day or dark
No traffic on the sociopath on which they embark
Nothing of what they saying smart
Suffering but I'm staying sharp
Laying parts of the puzzle but it's struggle
To be above em when I'm portraying art
Maybe I don't know a thing and I'm just blowing smoke
No one know that I'm low on hope, slowing, they don't throw him rope
Steady walking into that winter wind trying to find somebody that's sewing coats
My pain is frozen river so why we always rowing boats?
It's a growing hoax, and the sheep keep believing
They wondering what happened to me it's a deep seated reason
I've lost it the flakes have dropped, and I'm in a state of shock
Cause when I try to fly up in the sky I know them gates are locked
(hook)
Here I go again I guess I better run now
I'm go up in them clouds then I'll never come down
I don't wanna hear about a home that's peachy
Leave a message on God's phone to reach me
I used to write away my pain hoping the right away it'd change
Having a brighter day was strange cause inside I'd stay the same
Misunderstand as a poet, but I would play the game
Moving chess pieces carefully, I tried to say I'm sane
They knew that I was a lost cause they shushed him he's crazy
They shouldn't have played me, but they couldn't of saved me
Rose pedals bringing those devils kushed and so hazy
But the other stuff I'm doing will have me pushing up daisies
I look around me and wonder where all the knowledge went
So hostile and volatile ever dollar spent on them bottles no model acknowledgment
How are you a leader when you follow sins
How many milligram you swallowing? I'm bawling while I wallow in
My self pity and depression looking through a smaller lense
Nobody around me just a room full of them hollow friends
Well at least that's what I called em then
Sick of feeling so pitiful, just wish it all would end
(hook)
(bridge)
You can wake me up when it's time to go home
Until then let me sleep cause my mind is so gone
I don't wanna go away, but I know I need to
How's it feel to tell the truth and still no one believes you?
I'm feel like this isn't real life it's a game and props
Stage lights and scripts not even real rain that drops
Trying to change the thoughts but now my brain is boxed in the painted plots
I pull the hammer back I'm aiming shots
The plastic man who try to raise him, that ain't his pops
Living a lie the prison is my home but yeah I blame the cops
You are now tuned in to the Truman Show you came to watch
My pain is it entertaining my life is stained and blotched
And I'm not trying to be hateful I should be grateful
For what was right on my table lights on and cable
Them baby nikes on my feet pacifier and cradle
I can debate all day long and try to finagle
Life is fable, didn't the cycle was quite this unstable
Gimme the mic and I'm able, to tell you how I been sinning mind has been spinning like I'm a dradle
Thinking back to them Raman Noodles, bite marks from mice on the label, rice in the ladle, but we survived what was fatal
(hook)
(outro)
Maybe I, I can go crazy high, in this hazy sky
If you never met me don't bother to say goodbye
The more you talk about me. understand the more that they know
I don't have the karma I can't afford a halo
No I can't afford a halo... that's all I got