I don't know why this has been so heavy on my mind recently. Maybe cause it's football season and thanksgiving's coming or because of some of the recent.. decisions? made by some of the top football players on our high school team in 2011. Regardless, I had felt this way pretty much since that season ended: I feel like in a lot of ways joining the football team my soph*more year had compromised my life. I only really joined the team because my brother and good friend had convinced me to join, but one tore his ACL before the season started and the other quit maybe halfway through. We got a lot of talk before the summer practices started that we “wouldn't make it” as if it would be too intense for us? lol.
Sorry this is turning into a rant against high school football but take a f**ing look at the big picture: once a week you dressed up in tights and made sure you all looked nice and intimidating and spent all day before games hyping it up and making sure your sleeves were rolled up properly and SERIOUSLY does no one think it's weird at all to have girls 14-18 dress up in these short skirts to show off how flexible they are and how much they supported the players who at least acted like they didn't give a f** about them? Near the end of our relationship my ex was trying to convince me to go out for the football team again my senior year and we got into this argument: I argued the reason you should play sports is to enjoy yourself and company, she rejected this and said you should play sports because… I don't even know how to word what she meant, so you can show off your athleticism? Anyways, a lot of you devoted all your energy purely into football and didn't care about your cla**es at all, picked on pretty much anyone who didn't play sports, guys that didn't play football, and even players on your own f**ing team that weren't good enough for you. You always talked so much about teamwork but I'm preeetttyyy sure a lot of you, not all of you, didn't give a f** about the majority of your teammates you just wanted the glory of making Ashland have a winning football team.
End rant on football… after the season ended there was pretty much no one still into skateboarding in the school (something that had brought me so much happiness in my life until the summer practices started) and I came back to having much more free time and being able to actually hang out with friends and whatnot, but instead of being able to continue my life as usual, (Sorry phriends!) literally the only thing people did for fun was smoke and drink, I'm not even kidding, it seemed like all my friends had literally no aspirations in life whatsoever, the only things that mattered were d** and their girls.
The real actual reasons I felt it compromised my life get pretty sad from that point on but I'm glad to end this weird post on this note:
The point I'm trying to make here isn't that you shouldn't play football. It's that although you should do what makes you happy, you should maintain a balance in your life based upon what you believe to be just and true. The past 2 months have been a bit stressful for me, but being at my physical peak (not looks wise even though it sometimes feels like a bonus) and by that I mean surpa**ing the level of sk** that I left at the end of freshman year of high school, not just only in skateboarding but also the other aspirations I left behind (handstands, flipping, snowboarding, running, and even acting and singing haha) I can truthfully say that at this point in my life I'm the happiest I've been since Spring 2011.