(Verse 1)
I can't even think straight, my mind is straying from stress
So many problems on my mind that I seem to never forget
Dark thoughts, lurking in my head, like I'm going insane
Seeing images of my past, threw a cracked window frame
Being taunted by devil voices, so I'm stuck in a negative place
Being consumed by the devils lethal injection
Feeling neglected, so no one can see my perspective
I'm so lost in this world like Carmen, but I'm far from San Diego
So far down in my sorrow i can't even see, which way to go
Walking through a path that just overflows with misery
There is no hope; I'm trying to get in a mindset of diversity
And do things differently, trying to get out the rough, physically
Wishing life was easy, only way I vent my problems
Is through writing these lyrics always resolving them
Words of a musician, that uses paper and beats to ease my spirit
Which foreign parents always believe that I'm a bad seed?
Instead they put more attention on me smoking smoking trees
They won't see what I'm trying to achieve
The past experience got me stressing , now stuck in grief
Theres no
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My life heading in the wrong direction
My mind is filled with my past aggression
So it blinds my eyes perception
So let the music move me forward in this world of pure depression
(Verse 2)
Lack of communication got me drowned in worldly frustrations
Pushed out of humanities existence, feels like I never existed
Feeling different ,coming to a world that's filled with horrific tragedies
In the distant , I see nothing but pain within my vision
Tossed in my deception calling for help
In reality, no one is there to pick me up, in actuality
Lost in my heated fury ,pushed past my boundaries darkest degree
As you can see, I'm not the person I used to be
The darkness haunts me in my wildest dreams, it's hard to sleep
They say god come's to the ones who believe
Lost my job, a lot of my friends became full of deceit
So why is the world crashing down on me
Haven't seen my mom in four years stay trying to hold the tears
Got in trouble a lot of fake friends disappeared
Now im broke, only the real stay near
The pain pushes through my brain like nova cane
My Body feels numb to situation I can't discuss
The son in my family that goes against the grain
Trying to maintain ,myself but my heart is ignited, might combust
So many people in this world, just lost my trust
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