[Verse 1:]
I give a f** about a fan, I write lyrics for me
I leak my own sh**, so you people can hear it for free
So let me make this next statement as clear as can be
Listen close, because on me it's getting scary to sleep
I'm close to the edge, so if I get exposed to the lead
It's like a f**ing dictionary just explodes in my head
Soon as I open my meds, verses get openly said
This beat is hopeless, but only til my focus is dead
I get high with a verse, I only cry cuz it works
If I'm alive and it hurts, then how could dying be worse?
I'm probably cursed, because if you hear the lines I rehearse
And then rewind, there's a total different rhyme in reverse
Attracted to hell, it's like I'm trapped in a cell
Asking for help because you'll see me there attacking myself
There's no cure for the sickness here, the sh** you hear
Is fear man this kid's just weird
[Hook x2]
I'm so upside down, can't tell which way's up right now
I've been spinning round and round, upside down
[Verse 2]
I'm in search of a light, I need a purpose in life
The pain strength determines what kinda verses I write
They say I'm sick, but the sickness only worsens at night
So you can be the judge on what kind of person I'm like
Confusing what's right, I rap about abusing my wife
But if you ask the girl I love she'll say I'm usually nice
Truly polite and the only time that she knew me to fight
Will be when I'm pissed, clenched fists, start abusing a mic
And so they call me deranged, but that would hardly explain
The reason what goes on in my brain, goes on in my brain
So thank god I became, somebody smarter, insane
Through all this horrible pain, and I have my father to blame
I can't believe as a seed I was even conceived
Through your nuts, this is nuts, how the f** can this be?
Because I'm nothing like you, and you're nothing like me
I'm the blood that I bleed I give a f** if you breathe
[Hook x2]
[Verse 3]
I gotta get my life on track, that's what Brent said
But life is worse bro I envy that you been dead
Really, I kinda hope I get the same shot
If they don't make the train stop we'll be in the same spot
So I'm a nothing in life, yeah you're right, you're so perfect what the f** is it like?
Must've been nice growing up without a struggle a fight
What a delight and that's the reason that we're nothing alike
Because you're pretty and you're perfect, but imagery is worthless
The ugly that's inside makes you sh**ty on the surface
At least that I know that I'll be living for a purpose
And not just glamour and j**els, you're living for a purchase
So was you thinking about your kid or what?
Because once she got you liquored up, and said she wants to give it up
It seem like you ain't give a f**
The devil wearing lingerie and if you really wanna play
Then that's the price you gotta pay and that's all that I gotta say
[Hook]