[Verse 1]
I've been thinking
I've been thinking about
I've been thinking
About drinking
Thinking about smoking
Not weed
I need something a little more
Potent
Because recently I haven't been feeling too
Important
Like would it have really mattered
If my life had been aborted
Or if I suffered side effects
From c**aine that I snorted
I'm h**n to my own life
There's not a better way to word it
I feel like if I committed suicide
It wouldn't be recorded
That's why this eagle lays in my lap
Locked and loaded
Waiting for the moment
That perfect moment
To make everyone miss me
I just wish I could see the moment
Find out who was my real homies
And see who's souls get haunted
Who feels bad for my mistreatment
After I can't treated
The hallways you say you can't walk
Are the same halls you bullied me in
You used to hate when you seen me
Now you hate that you can't see me again
Because it's your fault
And you know it's your fault
You were jealous of me
Because I was free
From your faults
When really I hated
That you were free from my flaws
You were popular
And had tons of
Sexual intercourse
But of course
You hated that my life
Did not compare to yours
I was a nerd
I was a virgin
With dreams
To do things
But you destroyed them
Then turned me to the same thing
Now I'm just another dream
[Refrain]
And I just don't understand
Why I gotta live this way?
Why I gotta live this way?
[Verse 2]
I just don't understand
Why we gotta live this way
Tell me why we gotta live this way
All lives ain't great
We all
Don't live the same damn way
But why do we depreciate
The existence of other people
After people were battered to be sure that we were equals
Do we deprive other people of their lives
When it's their is right to live em
Is it just malism
A product of satanism
We hate so much
That we drive each other to
Self antagonism
It makes my eyes water so much
I'm starting to loose vision
Every time I see one of my siblings take their life
Because their life wasn't going right
They weren't living right
They weren't being treated right
Everybody did them wrong
After they deal with school
They have to deal with home
In a neighborhood
Where the wild things roam
Aggravated with adolescence
Tormented by temptation
No wonder you suffer
That's a deadly combination
Your being dealt blows
Like martial arts combinations
Between all your ducking weaving
You have no room patience
You've been too stressed out
And you don't feel like waiting
For you move
Your afraid of the moves
Your opponents making
But in this duel
It's not about the hits that you have taken
It's about how you get back up and keep playing
This game of life
And
Know
That you will always be able
To beat the cards dealt on the table
Put your heart in your hand
And play until you win
Cause life is like Yugioh
Don't give in to torment
[Refrain]
But I don't know why we gotta live this way
I don't know why we gotta live this way
I dont't know why we gotta live this way
[Outro]
I'm just another skinny n***a
Out here trying to make it
And it's getting so hard
That I don't know if I can take it
And everyone says
That's its make it or break it
There ain't no getting in between it
So I guess that I can't shake it